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I've been miserable lately. Maybe unjustly so, but miserable nonetheless. Writing in here makes me feel very self-absorbed. I try to build confidence, but it crumbles down. I have been in a desperate state in which I have contemplated contacting someone I know is interested(whom I am not and cannot get involved with), but have so far been able to restrain myself from doing so. I am forever unable to approach and strike up a conversation with a stranger, though I really would like to meet new people.
However, it really has less to do with females and my troubles with my appearance than it may appear. I am ashamed of my attitude and personality at times. I often do many of the things that make me cringe when others do them. I've been trying to mend and mold my ways to one of my liking, but have thus far been unsuccessful. I honestly don't understand how people actually want or enjoy my company. I'll end this before I bring myself down any more.
I have been very interested in reading as of late, but really don't know what to read. I want to read something that is going to make me think and learn. Preferably nonfiction, unless it is fiction containing what I am interested in. The Perks of Being A Wallflower has been recommended to me before, I will probably look more into that. Even good poetry is an option, but again, I am lost at where to start. Suggestions, please?
However, it really has less to do with females and my troubles with my appearance than it may appear. I am ashamed of my attitude and personality at times. I often do many of the things that make me cringe when others do them. I've been trying to mend and mold my ways to one of my liking, but have thus far been unsuccessful. I honestly don't understand how people actually want or enjoy my company. I'll end this before I bring myself down any more.
I have been very interested in reading as of late, but really don't know what to read. I want to read something that is going to make me think and learn. Preferably nonfiction, unless it is fiction containing what I am interested in. The Perks of Being A Wallflower has been recommended to me before, I will probably look more into that. Even good poetry is an option, but again, I am lost at where to start. Suggestions, please?