TAKE ME AWAY(9/?)
Title: TAKE ME AWAY(9/?)
Author: imnotskerrd
Beta: crybaby4u <3
Pairing: Kradam; Kris/OMC; Adam/Sauli
Word count: 3030
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction.
Warnings: Domestic violence; Bullying
Summary: Sometimes we think that letting someone go is the most selfless decision that one can ever make. Especially in a situation where no one can help you except for yourself. But what if you came back and found out that the love of your life didn't just change in the way you've expected him to but also is in a more messed up situation.
The next Sunday Kris finds himself in front of the mirror combing his hair and looking downward to check out his look. There are few visitors who’ve already arrived and he can already hear the clatters and some laughter from downstairs. Neil had knocked on his door telling him he’s going down. He even joked that he’d hide some booze for them to drink later on. Kris just shook his head at his friend.
He doesn’t know why he even bothered to check himself in the mirror when he knows he would always look the same. It wouldn’t create magic and suddenly makes him dashingly handsome and so he leaves the mirror and takes the stairs down to the party.
When he goes down the living room is already full of visitors and there’s no one in there that he knows he can talk with. So he reroutes to the kitchen and decides to take some soda from the fridge. He was just about to close it when he hears a squeak from his back that makes him bang his head on the refrigerator.
‘’Ouch! ’’
‘’Oh god sorry…’’ Cheeks says running to his side checking his head. ‘’You alright? Sorry, I got excited seeing you well I would get excited for anyone after seeing the grumpy Santa outside. No offense-but God, I didn’t really understand until now why Adam likes that guy.’’
‘’I’m okay.’’ He answers but rubs his head and feels a little bump already formed on his head.
‘’You want to go outside? Adam is there.’’ He asks but Kris thinks there’s more into that question that he honestly couldn’t figure out.
‘’No, I’m okay here. I’m starving and the food is here, so…’’
Cheeks looks over eyeing the table and exaggeratedly wipes his invisible drool on his chin.
‘’I like the way you think, kid.’’
They both settle at the table and Cheeks gets soda from the fridge too and he begins to dig in. Cheeks starts to ask him questions like where he was from and where he grew up-and surprisingly Kris felt so at ease with him and he can’t help but tell him his story. He just left out the abuse part that he and his mom had suffered from his dad but all in all he basically tells Cheeks his life.
Cheeks kisses his cheek and hugs him sideways telling him, ‘’you are a stronger man than you ever thought Kris.’’
Then they continue eating when suddenly Cheeks asks him, ‘’How’s your dad, now?’’
‘’He’s okay, though he still can’t walk-he barely can sit actually. He really injured his spine from the accident. But the doctor said he can sit and walk again but it takes time.’’
Cheeks nods his head repeatedly and holds his hand and squeezes it. ‘’It will be good-he’ll be alright.’’ He says smiling that makes him smile too.
And that’s how Adam finds them hesitantly clearing his throat. They both look up at him with a slight surprised look on Cheeks’ face.
‘’Sorry, did I interrupt something?’’ he asks looking at Cheeks intensely. Kris withdraws his hand from Cheeks’ grasp and settles it on his lap.
‘’Don’t be silly, of course you didn’t interrupt anything. I and Kris were just talking.’’ Cheeks says digging in on his food again.
Adam looks at Kris and he doesn’t say anything until Kris looks up and shyly smiles at him.
‘’Okay, but why are you both hiding here? There’s so much fun going on at the backyard.’’ He says picking a carrot stick on the table and munching on it.
‘’I’m sure it is.’’ Cheeks snarkily says stuffing a lettuce leaves inside his mouth.
‘’Brad…’’
‘’Adam, sorry, but I’d rather be here with Kris-no offense again, Kris, I don’t mean that as an insult- than to be the recipient of your boyfriend’s deathly glares. If looks could kill I’d be six feet under the ground hours ago. I think he’s still insecure with my fabulous self.’’
‘’Brad…’’
‘’Adam, hey, it’s alright. I just maybe need to get used to this. But I’m okay. And Kris here keeps me occupied, he’s so adorable.’’ He says smiling at him again and Adam looks at Kris.
‘’You’ll be okay here? You can sit with us outside, you know.’’ He asks him but Kris shakes his head and says, ‘’I like it more here.’’
That makes Cheeks claps his hands happily like a seal. ‘’See, we’re born for each other.’’ And Cheeks leans in to give Kris’ cheek a light peck.
Adam is quiet for a while just looking at them silently but Kris thinks his look has some weight in it that Kris can’t figure out what. But then he lets out a sigh then nods. ‘’Okay. Just try not to finish all the food.’’ He says and smiles albeit a small one.
‘’Okay, we can try.’’ Cheeks answers and Adam leaves the room shaking his head at them.
After couple of hours and both full from eating too much they both get another soda and settle on the balcony of the house to get some fresh air. From where they sit they can clearly see the people around the pool and there are few tables with people chatting and laughing on a rather lovely and peaceful evening. Kris’ eyes instinctively find Adam and stares at his beautiful face for a while. They are sitting at the far side of the table with Sauli at his side. Dani is at the same table with them together with Alisan and Cass who he met just few hours ago when they both came inside the kitchen looking for Cheeks.
They are all laughing at something Alisan was saying and Adam throws his head back to let out a loud laugh. Kris can’t take his eyes away from the beauty in front of him.
Then he feels like someone is staring holes at him and when he glances at Cheeks he finds him looking intently at him and suddenly his eyes grow bigger as if he has just figured out something so important. But Kris feels embarrass to be caught staring at Adam and Kris feels his whole body flushes and so he keeps his eyes on the ground.
‘’He’s gorgeous, isn’t he?’’ Cheeks asks softly in a dreamy like voice while looking down at Adam.
Kris doesn’t answer instead he plays with the almost empty can of soda still feeling embarrassed.
‘’Did you know I was his first love?’’ Cheeks blurts out.
Kris didn’t know that and so he shakes his head but he notices how his heart sinks at the revelation.
‘’Well, we dated since the beginning of our freshmen year and lasted until spring last years. We were together for about one and half years.’’
‘’I don’t need to tell you why we broke up, do I?’’ he asks shifting his body to face him.
‘’Because of Sauli?’’ he answers reluctantly but he’s almost sure that his answer was right.
‘’Yes and no. Sauli had a crush on him since he transferred from Greenland or was that Finland?’’ he says narrowing his eyes pretending to remember the country where Sauli came from. ‘’Eh-anywhere with ice and land where Santa Claus came from anyway, he got a crush on Adam when he came to our school at the beginning of our sophomore year and tried to steal him away from me. But Adam was head over heels for my beauty at that time and didn’t pay him any mind really.’’ Then Cheeks’ voice goes down a notch when he continues ‘’But I found them making out in the restroom one time and I was so angry Adam swore that Sauli cornered him and initiated it and he really didn’t mean to kiss him.’’
Cheeks looks down at Adam again and smiles painfully.
‘’I forgave him, but you know there’s something wrong when you suddenly questioned every little thing, when you doubted every single word. And I felt I had to break up with him before I lost every little bit of trust and respect for him. We talked and we broke up but agreed to be friends and nothing had changed really except we weren’t sleeping together anymore. I’m the first one to start dating again after couple of months and he seemed genuinely happy for me in which I was so grateful for. But then he started seeing Sauli and I guess he succeeded in getting Adam, anyway.’’
Cheeks makes a sour face as he says Sauli’s name.
‘’I’m not jealous or anything because we both had totally moved on already but Sauli started to take all his time away from us and started to get Adam all to himself. The conflict started there when Adam stood us up on almost all of our special occasions like our birthdays-usual gatherings. But then I fought, well, we all fought but I was the one who talked to him about his attitude towards us. He confessed that his boyfriend was so jealous of me that’s why he kind of distanced himself from us especially from me-but of course, I mean who wouldn’t be jealous of my fabulousness?’’
He chuckles lightheartedly and Kris mentally agrees with what he says. Cheeks is so fabulous and that is a fact-but so is Sauli.
‘’Then I yelled at him that he can’t just abandon us because his boyfriend was an insecure ass. I told him that we were friends even before we dated even before he met Sauli-he can’t just throw to the curb because of a new boyfriend’s insecurities.’’
‘’He apologized and asked me to just understand him-and I did, we did. We tried to mingle with Sauli and his friends but every time we did they would do something to insult us-especially me. He still couldn’t get over his jealousy when he didn’t have a reason to be jealous. We just want our friend-to be with Adam sometime. But his pea-sized brain couldn’t understand that.’’ Cheeks gestures his hand to point that the situation he was telling Kris was unbelievable.
‘’Then one time when we were on a friend’s party Sauli said some insulting words about me in front all of us. His friends were laughing at his insult-of course-but what hurt me the most, was Adam didn’t even say a thing to stop him-them. He looked torn and called Sauli’s name once but that was it.’’
‘’It was Cass who couldn’t take it and punched Sauli in the face that almost broke his nose. He was brought to the hospital and reported the incident to the police. He kind of made it over dramatic to prove his case but because Cass was underage and couldn’t be put in prison for anything he had to do some community service instead which was equally hard. Adam begged his boyfriend to drop the case but Sauli stubbornly insisted. In the end Sauli made a deal with Adam-that he would totally stay away from us in exchange for droping Cass’ case. Cass told Adam not to do it that he’d rather do community service than to do what his boyfriend had asked him to.’’
Cheeks drinks from his soda and looks at Adam again.
‘’Then you know what Adam had chosen.’’ He says leaning on the chair and looks like he’s trying hard to not let his emotion takes over.
Kris nods and doesn’t say anything but he can feel Cheeks’ sadness as the other man remembers some rough times with Adam. It must have been a tough phase for their friendships and he’s so glad that Adam took that road to his friends again.
‘’You know, he likes you.’’ Cheeks suddenly says which makes Kris glance up at him. He then smiles and snorts looking at Cheeks with his eyebrows lift up as if saying ‘Yeah, right.’ Then he shakes his head and nonchalantly shrugs.
‘’Really, Kris I know him better than anybody else and I say he really likes you.’’
‘’Of course, Cheeks you like me too.’’ He jokingly says but not looking up from his can. He can say that he’s flushing from his toe to the tips of his hair.
‘’Of course, I do-we all do. But I don’t mean it like that, silly.’’ Cheeks reaches to pinch his side. Then they become quiet for a while.
‘’I can see by the way he looks at you just like the way he's looking at you right now.’’
That makes him snap his head up and looks over at Adam and surprisingly finds him staring back at him. If he’s being honest, he sees him flush for having been caught staring but that can be just from the lightning. Adam seems caught off guard for a split second but bounces back by beaming so sweetly and waves at him.
Kris can’t do anything but to smile and waves back. Then they share a couple more moments staring at each other until Adam shifts his eyes and looks at Cheeks arching an eyebrow at him and rolls his eyes as Cheeks just chuckles lightly.
‘’Trust me, babe. He likes you and not just like a friend-like-you. He seriously likes you.’’ Cheeks says reaching out to cup his face gently and giving it a light peck.
Kris thinks about what Cheeks had told him and it kind of gives him a light indescribable feeling. Hope? Could be…
And after everyone left for the night he spends sometime looking at his reflection on the mirror again. He doesn’t know what he’s looking for but he kinds of liked the way Cheeks’ words have make him feel.
Though one part of his head is screaming that it isn’t possible-not in a million years Adam would have like him like that-but part of him plays the words that Cheeks’ has told him repeatedly in his head and it does feel so good.
He leaves the mirror smiling and decides to let himself to hope for some happiness-his ever after. What could’ve gone bad if he’d entertain some of it in his life If Cheeks is right Adam might like him too.
That thought makes him giddy and it’s so foreign for him but it feels great nonetheless. He’s about to climb into his bed when he notices he forgot his glass of milk on the kitchen counter, he already warmed it before going up stairs.
Honesty he contemplates just leaving it but the thought of wasting the milk is enough for him to walk to his door to take it down stairs. But when he opens his door with all smiles on his face he sees a shadow of two figures kissing right at the wall next to Adam’s room.
He sees how Adam intensely looks in Sauli’s eyes and dives to kiss his mouth again and again. It’s so passionate and so romantic when Adam cups his boyfriend’s face and whispers something in his ears that makes the smaller man catch Adam’s mouth again and slightly jump up to climb on to Adam’s waist.
Sauli crosses his feet and arms at the back of Adam’s butt and neck. Adam moves them slowly fully carrying Sauli’s weight around his waist opening the door without taking his mouth off of his boyfriend’s.
Kris gently closes his door and leans on it for a while. The smile that he had on his face has since been wiped out once he opened that damn door. Kris bites his lip and closes his eyes to drown out the feelings of having your heart being twisted and tied into knots all at the same time.
After few moments and as he makes sure he can walk again he checks his reflection back in his mirror. He stands in front of it and watches his reflection in it-really watches it.
What he can see is a frail, weak, pale boy who wears thick glasses and a totally weird not cool for his age clothes. He can almost visualize on his side the reflection of Sauli who has a tone and tanned body wearing a fit shirt and skinny jeans that emphasizes how good looking he is.
Kris painfully chuckles and shakes his head at his craziness. How can he let himself believe that Adam would like him when he has that perfect boy in his arms? Or can totally have anyone for that matter. How can he easily forget his mother’s wisdom about love only after hearing some encouraging words from Cheeks? How can he let himself hope that Adam feels something for him-that he would like him more than friends?
Kris always knows the thin line between reality and fantasy that a mind can create. He was brought up to know when he’s being drowned by his own fantasy in his head-to never cross that line-to never even tried to set foot in it. And here he was he’d almost just did that-he had almost forget where he should stand.
Adam is Adam. He has the most fabulous ex and the most gorgeous current boyfriend. Cheeks is so out of this world but still Adam agreed to break up with him. As easy as that because Adam can have anyone he wishes to have. He will not be surprised if he breaks up with Sauli and acts like everything is okay-because he truly will be okay-he knows he can do whatever he wants, can have whatever he likes.
So why settle for less when you can have the best, right? Seems like a perfect logic for Adam. And why would Adam even consider him to be his boyfriend when he’s basically nothing compare to his ex and current boyfriend?
His mother was right. We cannot choose whoever our heart would fall in love with but we cannot expect anything from them. Just do whatever you think you need to do to make them happy and if it’s still not enough then that’s life. Happiness is certainly not for everyone.
Author: imnotskerrd
Beta: crybaby4u <3
Pairing: Kradam; Kris/OMC; Adam/Sauli
Word count: 3030
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction.
Warnings: Domestic violence; Bullying
Summary: Sometimes we think that letting someone go is the most selfless decision that one can ever make. Especially in a situation where no one can help you except for yourself. But what if you came back and found out that the love of your life didn't just change in the way you've expected him to but also is in a more messed up situation.
The next Sunday Kris finds himself in front of the mirror combing his hair and looking downward to check out his look. There are few visitors who’ve already arrived and he can already hear the clatters and some laughter from downstairs. Neil had knocked on his door telling him he’s going down. He even joked that he’d hide some booze for them to drink later on. Kris just shook his head at his friend.
He doesn’t know why he even bothered to check himself in the mirror when he knows he would always look the same. It wouldn’t create magic and suddenly makes him dashingly handsome and so he leaves the mirror and takes the stairs down to the party.
When he goes down the living room is already full of visitors and there’s no one in there that he knows he can talk with. So he reroutes to the kitchen and decides to take some soda from the fridge. He was just about to close it when he hears a squeak from his back that makes him bang his head on the refrigerator.
‘’Ouch! ’’
‘’Oh god sorry…’’ Cheeks says running to his side checking his head. ‘’You alright? Sorry, I got excited seeing you well I would get excited for anyone after seeing the grumpy Santa outside. No offense-but God, I didn’t really understand until now why Adam likes that guy.’’
‘’I’m okay.’’ He answers but rubs his head and feels a little bump already formed on his head.
‘’You want to go outside? Adam is there.’’ He asks but Kris thinks there’s more into that question that he honestly couldn’t figure out.
‘’No, I’m okay here. I’m starving and the food is here, so…’’
Cheeks looks over eyeing the table and exaggeratedly wipes his invisible drool on his chin.
‘’I like the way you think, kid.’’
They both settle at the table and Cheeks gets soda from the fridge too and he begins to dig in. Cheeks starts to ask him questions like where he was from and where he grew up-and surprisingly Kris felt so at ease with him and he can’t help but tell him his story. He just left out the abuse part that he and his mom had suffered from his dad but all in all he basically tells Cheeks his life.
Cheeks kisses his cheek and hugs him sideways telling him, ‘’you are a stronger man than you ever thought Kris.’’
Then they continue eating when suddenly Cheeks asks him, ‘’How’s your dad, now?’’
‘’He’s okay, though he still can’t walk-he barely can sit actually. He really injured his spine from the accident. But the doctor said he can sit and walk again but it takes time.’’
Cheeks nods his head repeatedly and holds his hand and squeezes it. ‘’It will be good-he’ll be alright.’’ He says smiling that makes him smile too.
And that’s how Adam finds them hesitantly clearing his throat. They both look up at him with a slight surprised look on Cheeks’ face.
‘’Sorry, did I interrupt something?’’ he asks looking at Cheeks intensely. Kris withdraws his hand from Cheeks’ grasp and settles it on his lap.
‘’Don’t be silly, of course you didn’t interrupt anything. I and Kris were just talking.’’ Cheeks says digging in on his food again.
Adam looks at Kris and he doesn’t say anything until Kris looks up and shyly smiles at him.
‘’Okay, but why are you both hiding here? There’s so much fun going on at the backyard.’’ He says picking a carrot stick on the table and munching on it.
‘’I’m sure it is.’’ Cheeks snarkily says stuffing a lettuce leaves inside his mouth.
‘’Brad…’’
‘’Adam, sorry, but I’d rather be here with Kris-no offense again, Kris, I don’t mean that as an insult- than to be the recipient of your boyfriend’s deathly glares. If looks could kill I’d be six feet under the ground hours ago. I think he’s still insecure with my fabulous self.’’
‘’Brad…’’
‘’Adam, hey, it’s alright. I just maybe need to get used to this. But I’m okay. And Kris here keeps me occupied, he’s so adorable.’’ He says smiling at him again and Adam looks at Kris.
‘’You’ll be okay here? You can sit with us outside, you know.’’ He asks him but Kris shakes his head and says, ‘’I like it more here.’’
That makes Cheeks claps his hands happily like a seal. ‘’See, we’re born for each other.’’ And Cheeks leans in to give Kris’ cheek a light peck.
Adam is quiet for a while just looking at them silently but Kris thinks his look has some weight in it that Kris can’t figure out what. But then he lets out a sigh then nods. ‘’Okay. Just try not to finish all the food.’’ He says and smiles albeit a small one.
‘’Okay, we can try.’’ Cheeks answers and Adam leaves the room shaking his head at them.
After couple of hours and both full from eating too much they both get another soda and settle on the balcony of the house to get some fresh air. From where they sit they can clearly see the people around the pool and there are few tables with people chatting and laughing on a rather lovely and peaceful evening. Kris’ eyes instinctively find Adam and stares at his beautiful face for a while. They are sitting at the far side of the table with Sauli at his side. Dani is at the same table with them together with Alisan and Cass who he met just few hours ago when they both came inside the kitchen looking for Cheeks.
They are all laughing at something Alisan was saying and Adam throws his head back to let out a loud laugh. Kris can’t take his eyes away from the beauty in front of him.
Then he feels like someone is staring holes at him and when he glances at Cheeks he finds him looking intently at him and suddenly his eyes grow bigger as if he has just figured out something so important. But Kris feels embarrass to be caught staring at Adam and Kris feels his whole body flushes and so he keeps his eyes on the ground.
‘’He’s gorgeous, isn’t he?’’ Cheeks asks softly in a dreamy like voice while looking down at Adam.
Kris doesn’t answer instead he plays with the almost empty can of soda still feeling embarrassed.
‘’Did you know I was his first love?’’ Cheeks blurts out.
Kris didn’t know that and so he shakes his head but he notices how his heart sinks at the revelation.
‘’Well, we dated since the beginning of our freshmen year and lasted until spring last years. We were together for about one and half years.’’
‘’I don’t need to tell you why we broke up, do I?’’ he asks shifting his body to face him.
‘’Because of Sauli?’’ he answers reluctantly but he’s almost sure that his answer was right.
‘’Yes and no. Sauli had a crush on him since he transferred from Greenland or was that Finland?’’ he says narrowing his eyes pretending to remember the country where Sauli came from. ‘’Eh-anywhere with ice and land where Santa Claus came from anyway, he got a crush on Adam when he came to our school at the beginning of our sophomore year and tried to steal him away from me. But Adam was head over heels for my beauty at that time and didn’t pay him any mind really.’’ Then Cheeks’ voice goes down a notch when he continues ‘’But I found them making out in the restroom one time and I was so angry Adam swore that Sauli cornered him and initiated it and he really didn’t mean to kiss him.’’
Cheeks looks down at Adam again and smiles painfully.
‘’I forgave him, but you know there’s something wrong when you suddenly questioned every little thing, when you doubted every single word. And I felt I had to break up with him before I lost every little bit of trust and respect for him. We talked and we broke up but agreed to be friends and nothing had changed really except we weren’t sleeping together anymore. I’m the first one to start dating again after couple of months and he seemed genuinely happy for me in which I was so grateful for. But then he started seeing Sauli and I guess he succeeded in getting Adam, anyway.’’
Cheeks makes a sour face as he says Sauli’s name.
‘’I’m not jealous or anything because we both had totally moved on already but Sauli started to take all his time away from us and started to get Adam all to himself. The conflict started there when Adam stood us up on almost all of our special occasions like our birthdays-usual gatherings. But then I fought, well, we all fought but I was the one who talked to him about his attitude towards us. He confessed that his boyfriend was so jealous of me that’s why he kind of distanced himself from us especially from me-but of course, I mean who wouldn’t be jealous of my fabulousness?’’
He chuckles lightheartedly and Kris mentally agrees with what he says. Cheeks is so fabulous and that is a fact-but so is Sauli.
‘’Then I yelled at him that he can’t just abandon us because his boyfriend was an insecure ass. I told him that we were friends even before we dated even before he met Sauli-he can’t just throw to the curb because of a new boyfriend’s insecurities.’’
‘’He apologized and asked me to just understand him-and I did, we did. We tried to mingle with Sauli and his friends but every time we did they would do something to insult us-especially me. He still couldn’t get over his jealousy when he didn’t have a reason to be jealous. We just want our friend-to be with Adam sometime. But his pea-sized brain couldn’t understand that.’’ Cheeks gestures his hand to point that the situation he was telling Kris was unbelievable.
‘’Then one time when we were on a friend’s party Sauli said some insulting words about me in front all of us. His friends were laughing at his insult-of course-but what hurt me the most, was Adam didn’t even say a thing to stop him-them. He looked torn and called Sauli’s name once but that was it.’’
‘’It was Cass who couldn’t take it and punched Sauli in the face that almost broke his nose. He was brought to the hospital and reported the incident to the police. He kind of made it over dramatic to prove his case but because Cass was underage and couldn’t be put in prison for anything he had to do some community service instead which was equally hard. Adam begged his boyfriend to drop the case but Sauli stubbornly insisted. In the end Sauli made a deal with Adam-that he would totally stay away from us in exchange for droping Cass’ case. Cass told Adam not to do it that he’d rather do community service than to do what his boyfriend had asked him to.’’
Cheeks drinks from his soda and looks at Adam again.
‘’Then you know what Adam had chosen.’’ He says leaning on the chair and looks like he’s trying hard to not let his emotion takes over.
Kris nods and doesn’t say anything but he can feel Cheeks’ sadness as the other man remembers some rough times with Adam. It must have been a tough phase for their friendships and he’s so glad that Adam took that road to his friends again.
‘’You know, he likes you.’’ Cheeks suddenly says which makes Kris glance up at him. He then smiles and snorts looking at Cheeks with his eyebrows lift up as if saying ‘Yeah, right.’ Then he shakes his head and nonchalantly shrugs.
‘’Really, Kris I know him better than anybody else and I say he really likes you.’’
‘’Of course, Cheeks you like me too.’’ He jokingly says but not looking up from his can. He can say that he’s flushing from his toe to the tips of his hair.
‘’Of course, I do-we all do. But I don’t mean it like that, silly.’’ Cheeks reaches to pinch his side. Then they become quiet for a while.
‘’I can see by the way he looks at you just like the way he's looking at you right now.’’
That makes him snap his head up and looks over at Adam and surprisingly finds him staring back at him. If he’s being honest, he sees him flush for having been caught staring but that can be just from the lightning. Adam seems caught off guard for a split second but bounces back by beaming so sweetly and waves at him.
Kris can’t do anything but to smile and waves back. Then they share a couple more moments staring at each other until Adam shifts his eyes and looks at Cheeks arching an eyebrow at him and rolls his eyes as Cheeks just chuckles lightly.
‘’Trust me, babe. He likes you and not just like a friend-like-you. He seriously likes you.’’ Cheeks says reaching out to cup his face gently and giving it a light peck.
Kris thinks about what Cheeks had told him and it kind of gives him a light indescribable feeling. Hope? Could be…
And after everyone left for the night he spends sometime looking at his reflection on the mirror again. He doesn’t know what he’s looking for but he kinds of liked the way Cheeks’ words have make him feel.
Though one part of his head is screaming that it isn’t possible-not in a million years Adam would have like him like that-but part of him plays the words that Cheeks’ has told him repeatedly in his head and it does feel so good.
He leaves the mirror smiling and decides to let himself to hope for some happiness-his ever after. What could’ve gone bad if he’d entertain some of it in his life If Cheeks is right Adam might like him too.
That thought makes him giddy and it’s so foreign for him but it feels great nonetheless. He’s about to climb into his bed when he notices he forgot his glass of milk on the kitchen counter, he already warmed it before going up stairs.
Honesty he contemplates just leaving it but the thought of wasting the milk is enough for him to walk to his door to take it down stairs. But when he opens his door with all smiles on his face he sees a shadow of two figures kissing right at the wall next to Adam’s room.
He sees how Adam intensely looks in Sauli’s eyes and dives to kiss his mouth again and again. It’s so passionate and so romantic when Adam cups his boyfriend’s face and whispers something in his ears that makes the smaller man catch Adam’s mouth again and slightly jump up to climb on to Adam’s waist.
Sauli crosses his feet and arms at the back of Adam’s butt and neck. Adam moves them slowly fully carrying Sauli’s weight around his waist opening the door without taking his mouth off of his boyfriend’s.
Kris gently closes his door and leans on it for a while. The smile that he had on his face has since been wiped out once he opened that damn door. Kris bites his lip and closes his eyes to drown out the feelings of having your heart being twisted and tied into knots all at the same time.
After few moments and as he makes sure he can walk again he checks his reflection back in his mirror. He stands in front of it and watches his reflection in it-really watches it.
What he can see is a frail, weak, pale boy who wears thick glasses and a totally weird not cool for his age clothes. He can almost visualize on his side the reflection of Sauli who has a tone and tanned body wearing a fit shirt and skinny jeans that emphasizes how good looking he is.
Kris painfully chuckles and shakes his head at his craziness. How can he let himself believe that Adam would like him when he has that perfect boy in his arms? Or can totally have anyone for that matter. How can he easily forget his mother’s wisdom about love only after hearing some encouraging words from Cheeks? How can he let himself hope that Adam feels something for him-that he would like him more than friends?
Kris always knows the thin line between reality and fantasy that a mind can create. He was brought up to know when he’s being drowned by his own fantasy in his head-to never cross that line-to never even tried to set foot in it. And here he was he’d almost just did that-he had almost forget where he should stand.
Adam is Adam. He has the most fabulous ex and the most gorgeous current boyfriend. Cheeks is so out of this world but still Adam agreed to break up with him. As easy as that because Adam can have anyone he wishes to have. He will not be surprised if he breaks up with Sauli and acts like everything is okay-because he truly will be okay-he knows he can do whatever he wants, can have whatever he likes.
So why settle for less when you can have the best, right? Seems like a perfect logic for Adam. And why would Adam even consider him to be his boyfriend when he’s basically nothing compare to his ex and current boyfriend?
His mother was right. We cannot choose whoever our heart would fall in love with but we cannot expect anything from them. Just do whatever you think you need to do to make them happy and if it’s still not enough then that’s life. Happiness is certainly not for everyone.