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today..was a rough day. im really sad right now. a friend told me something about a med shes gonna take annd one of the side effects COULD POSSIVLY MAYBVE i guess it doesnt happen often...but it could make u have suicidal thoughts. and i guess...that nmay be wat im afraid,. of. why i dont want to speak toa professional..i dont want to be put on a medication that will make me qorse. and yeah if it makes me evvna LITTLE worse..im FUCKED..and i well..well theere wont be anything else to fuck up....cuz its gonna be gone . im already walking completely blind ona tight rop 600000 ft in the air...with no net. so u know w.e i dont really care ill be hnest with you..and im sure you dont either. im NOT PITYING ANYTHING. welcome top my life. i dont wish anyone i have met cares..i wish i didnt ever meet them. i never saw them. never SAID A WORD. because chances are..i feel worse because of them. even tho one makes me feel so happy at times...most of the time i just want to DIE> and w/e the reasno i feel liek this... i do.
again. what the fuck ever. i just eed to fucking..not be SO SAD> we all know what would chnge that..but do any of us care? and im over the concept of happiness. its bullshit. soo FUCK YOU HAPPINESS! FUCK YOU :)