I want more than "Just OK"
Went to in and out. Met G-pas girlfriend who is a TOTAL doll. Go grandpa! Papa bought me a double cheeseburger and a milkshake!!!! WE HAD A DEAL... WTF??? He has lost 17 pounds and Ive lost 9 since end of June till now. SO...hes trying to kill operation kill-fat but will I let him? Ohhhhh, no! Revenge of the sushi.
Is it just me or is Louis XIV all about crazy whips and cuffs sex? And is it just me or they like the #1 most played band in sac these days. Poosh. And yet...theyre so all over the place i may be one of 5 people who actually have not yet chucked the new self-titled album.
ATLANTIC RECORDS IS EATING My FAVORITE Little indie brittish techno label!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF IS HAPPENING TO PINEAPPPLES AND REAL APPLES INC. oh PA and RA...how sad you have made me. I feel like Ive been cheated on with an ugly prostitute with dentures named Melissa.
Uhm............Derek louie? COURTNEY....WTF!
Katie haawkenson abducted my--- (used to be)FAVORITE GUY FRIEND!!!!! by sending him a sexy pic of herself in a "someone in sacramento, CA looooves you shirt" haha. Silly memo, when will you get those fries out of your nostrils???
ROSE HAS OFFIIALLY DELETED ME FROM HER MYSPACE FRIENDS! BOO HOO! YUSSSSSSSSS!!!! BUT I STILL WANT MY BURKS DAMNIT
ON A MORE SERIOUS NOTE:
Ok, so...Eric Chisholm apologized to me today. I could say that I feel better and I do...but I saw something in him once. Something different. I mean, go figure hes got something otherwise he wouldnt have all these babes in his wake...but it wasnt that. Its not the hair or the teeth or the cold glare that Ive only seen. It was the sort of...almost insecure boy. This intelligent person who is capable of wit and humor and charm but also...something else im not really sure of... I cant put my finger on it
But anyways...he reminds me of the sort of personality my friend Sean has. Its the kind of personality that when given the chance, turns into a good friend. The sort of no words because you just Know. the sort of thing Ive so missed as sean lives in So-Cal. And its not the corny, Im gonna tell you all my secrets friend. Its the...not sure how to describe it.
Anyways...it really depresses me that it took him this long to see some part of me that hadnt clicked before. And honestly, he could still really hate me and just be trying to move on but I dont know. the apology threw me off. i guess I just figured it would be like all the other times id tried to apologize and hed just blow it off. But, before all the shabbiness happened. We couldve been friends. Because where it matters...we arent all that different. katie...you know what im talking about.
But Im happy. I went out today, did my thing. Made this boy with a dairy hat on laugh with the faces i made at my grandfathers ridiculous comments to his GF. DUDE< MY GRANDPA GETS MORE GAME THAN I DO. Im reaching my alltime low. Made a sarcastic remark to a guy who laughed at Adams parking job and then sat down, with my sushi and thought for a second about why the whole eric thing had bothered me.
COnclusion: Im too insecure to feel someone hating me everyday. To feel like something that someone stepped in. For every comment I made to be ripped apart by mean analyzing eyes.
Thank you Eric...thank you for letting me be at peace finally. Just...I feel like a got a birthday present like a " wow, youre not so disgusting and awful after all"
Its really genuinely appreciated
Is it just me or is Louis XIV all about crazy whips and cuffs sex? And is it just me or they like the #1 most played band in sac these days. Poosh. And yet...theyre so all over the place i may be one of 5 people who actually have not yet chucked the new self-titled album.
ATLANTIC RECORDS IS EATING My FAVORITE Little indie brittish techno label!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF IS HAPPENING TO PINEAPPPLES AND REAL APPLES INC. oh PA and RA...how sad you have made me. I feel like Ive been cheated on with an ugly prostitute with dentures named Melissa.
Uhm............Derek louie? COURTNEY....WTF!
Katie haawkenson abducted my--- (used to be)FAVORITE GUY FRIEND!!!!! by sending him a sexy pic of herself in a "someone in sacramento, CA looooves you shirt" haha. Silly memo, when will you get those fries out of your nostrils???
ROSE HAS OFFIIALLY DELETED ME FROM HER MYSPACE FRIENDS! BOO HOO! YUSSSSSSSSS!!!! BUT I STILL WANT MY BURKS DAMNIT
ON A MORE SERIOUS NOTE:
Ok, so...Eric Chisholm apologized to me today. I could say that I feel better and I do...but I saw something in him once. Something different. I mean, go figure hes got something otherwise he wouldnt have all these babes in his wake...but it wasnt that. Its not the hair or the teeth or the cold glare that Ive only seen. It was the sort of...almost insecure boy. This intelligent person who is capable of wit and humor and charm but also...something else im not really sure of... I cant put my finger on it
But anyways...he reminds me of the sort of personality my friend Sean has. Its the kind of personality that when given the chance, turns into a good friend. The sort of no words because you just Know. the sort of thing Ive so missed as sean lives in So-Cal. And its not the corny, Im gonna tell you all my secrets friend. Its the...not sure how to describe it.
Anyways...it really depresses me that it took him this long to see some part of me that hadnt clicked before. And honestly, he could still really hate me and just be trying to move on but I dont know. the apology threw me off. i guess I just figured it would be like all the other times id tried to apologize and hed just blow it off. But, before all the shabbiness happened. We couldve been friends. Because where it matters...we arent all that different. katie...you know what im talking about.
But Im happy. I went out today, did my thing. Made this boy with a dairy hat on laugh with the faces i made at my grandfathers ridiculous comments to his GF. DUDE< MY GRANDPA GETS MORE GAME THAN I DO. Im reaching my alltime low. Made a sarcastic remark to a guy who laughed at Adams parking job and then sat down, with my sushi and thought for a second about why the whole eric thing had bothered me.
COnclusion: Im too insecure to feel someone hating me everyday. To feel like something that someone stepped in. For every comment I made to be ripped apart by mean analyzing eyes.
Thank you Eric...thank you for letting me be at peace finally. Just...I feel like a got a birthday present like a " wow, youre not so disgusting and awful after all"
Its really genuinely appreciated