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IM so GODDAMN worried about these stoopid finals.. i hate this shit it so goddamn final you know.. ARG!! i don't know what to do i just want to get over it because i know deep down that i dont think im going to finish high skool .. and i know its not a good thing however i don't think it's going to happen .. too much shit is taught and forgotten and the rules and boundaries.. plus everyone acts like skool is you're life when in actualuality it's really not .. think about it .. you get out of high skool .. does it fucking matter who you dated .. what you did.. what you DIDNT do.. who your friends were.. or even how you did.. unless of course you have these ridiculous high expectations... AIM FOR NOTHING AND YOU'LL probably hit .. i can't believe i just quoted a goddamn poster. someone has got some issues anywho it speaks truth .. and i've aimed at nothing.. and i don't feel the sudden need to do better to impress anyone ... i really don't think that i need to impress you *flips off the world* .. and me i'm already impressed with myself.. i haven't been truant this year.. i've actually gone that was my accomplishment and fuck them if they want more out of me .. when i was forced to go back to the public skool system they said that i would need to go.. end of story but now they're expecting me to do well and not just well.. like b/a well.. im damn fine with a C .. a C is fucking average... i don't know .. i know i don't apply myself but i don't feel the need to either.. why should i act like i have a passion about something i don't... it doesn't work like that you know? it just doesn't.. and now i feel so fucking desolate.. i really do.. im just so very alone.. even when i hang out with Taylor or Chris on occasion .. im still alone.. in my mind .. i don't know.. sometimes .. i think i've lost it.. and i mean really gone off the deep end.. but then.. it hits me... if im so goddamn insane.. why haven't i done anything about it and why is everyone speaking so loud at me all the time .. or glaring . . . I can't stand civilians lately.. i was at walmart yesterday.. i was trying to look at faceplates because i dropped my phone and it flew off in the parking lot so i was just minding my business looking for a faceplate and i go to move and look a little bit more to the right cuz i couldn't see that well and these ladies are just standing there talking and im trying to give them a hint by moving closer and closer slowly but nothing is fucking working!!! they couldn't get the goddamn hint!!! and that pissed me off .. so i was all upset.. and then before when i was at walmart .. i got my pictures that i dropped off back and i went to go and get them rung up or whatever. . and the lady wouldn't stop asking me about my pictures!! and i just wanted to kill something!! it was so agitating!!! so very agitating.. and i'm sorry if im being a bit psycho or whatever .. but im fucking freaking out here!!! i really am and i just wish it would stop.. goddamn im tormented.