This is me Pretending....this is all I need
Yeha I'm on a Linkin Park Listening spree, and I really don't know why. So Connor imed me and pretty much set me straight for about the thousandth time. I dunno I'm always going to care about him it's just, I can't care about him in the way I want to.(if that made sense.) I really hope I can just stay friend's with him, I think i can deal with that. As for Adam, God I love him so much, but I can't help feeling that I fucked up our relationship. I know what I did was stupid and I hte myself for it. Vik I'm sorry but I can't help but feel that it's my fault I'm the one to blame, I was the one to break up with him and I was the idiot that caused all of this. I feel so incredibly responsable for everything that has happened and Vik I'm sorry, I lied when I said that stuff to you yesterday. I just wanted to make you happy, like I do with evryone else make sure they are happy even if it hurts me, and I really don't care I can take the pain I'm used to it. Pain is just natural to me something that I live with every single fucking day of my life. well, it's time to go clean my room before my mom gets pissed off at me.
Forget me, it's that Simple.
Sammy
And I'd give it all away just to have somewhere to go to give it all away just to have someone to come home to.