I don't really know how to blog anymore
It's been, wow, 7 months since the last entry (and close to 5 since the break-up) and I'm not really sure how to begin putting down into words what the past 7 months have been like.
In a nutshell, I quit WP, accepted an offer with Links, said my goodbyes to the friends and family I've lived with all my life (save for the 4 years in college when I stayed in hall), packed my bags and left Singapore for Beijing, China and am now living on my own in this city that is 24 x the size of Singapore in terms of land area (and which population is 3.5 x that of Singapore's).
And I'm actually doing ok, so far. I've started a Beijing blog and its for public viewing, i.e. meant for family, not-so-close friends/acquaintances' eyes. It's really meant to be a one-stop solution for me to be able to update those I left behind in Singapore re my life here. Haven't decided whether I want it to be "friends-only", and the extent of self-censorship I will have to exercise. Will think more about that.
In the meantime, this space remains for my eyes as well as the eyes of those closest and dearest to me. While I wouldn't say that what I post on the Beijing blog is any less true that what I post here, it is here that I think I feel most at home and will say what matters the most to me. Guess you could say the Beijing blog is really more a factual log-book more than anything else. Which probably also means that it is wont to get boring after a couple of posts hurhur. We shall see if anyone bothers to keep up with it in time. If not, I'll just shut it down. We shall see.
Oh and btw, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! It still stings a bit to think about how different last Vday was for me as compared to this year but no point moping over split milk eh. I should add that I dreamt about Nick 2 evenings ago, when I was nursing a slight fever. Was most bizarro and just-so-mildly traumatising. Without going into details (especially since the dream, as with most of my dreams, didn't really make sense), let's just say that it started with me ignoring him (but feeling bad about it) and ended with him asking me if we could try again,... then I woke up (i.e. I didn't give him an answer). And so of cos for the rest of Sunday I kept pondering what my answer would be. Defo "no", in case you're wondering (though I nursed doubts at various times in the day).
ANYWAY, was just a dream and I would be silly to give it any further thought. He remains blocked from my facebook account, number remains deleted from my mobile phone contact list (not that it makes any difference cos its still kinda embedded in my memory but I'm sure I'll forget it in time), and yeah zilch contact.