I am feeling completely out of my depth here.
With this matter I do not feel I am qualified to handle.
A potent mix of frustration, (mild) anger and self-doubt clouding my mind while I try to grasp the alien concepts and various documents.
But as SH was driving off after very kindly making a trip down to office just to pass me her text (she took related module in lawskool), and I was deliberating how to draft/amend the documents, it occurred to me that I should just suck it up and try to think positive (and not be such a whiny wuss).
Ok, so this is completely utterly new to me and is not quite the kind of thing that can be tackled with a 2day weekend self-taught crash course. It is clear, however, that I'm stuck with it (can't just give up and turn down the file now, can I?) so I might as well just think how to make the best of it and get the deal done.
Positives:
1. Partner has plonked file on me. This must imply (to some degree) she thinks I can do it. So I am gonna friggin' get it done, done right and to the best of my abilities.
2. It has been so long since I have challenged myself like this. Gotta step it up and piah. If nothing else, the effort should prove to be good training at how to be good fire-fighter,... well I mean lawyer.
3. I have a pupil helping me. (At least got research kah kia).
4. SH has kindly loaned me her textbook so at least I have the materials to conduct abovementioned 2day weekend crash course.
5. Bf has time to spend with me tomorrow and we are planning to hit the club for a nice swim + massage after :)
6. Bestfriend is arriving from London this weekend so if nothing else, I can look forward to rewarding myself with drinks with him after this damn deal is done and the dust has settled.
Negatives:
I am not going there.
Ok, have to go and meet the bf and his mum at GWC now.