i want you around, for everyone

[taomod]

Title: i want you around
Recipient: everyone
Pairing: Tao/Suho side!Luhan/Xiumin
Rating: nc-17
Warnings: sex, alcohol use, and brief mentions of social anxiety/home sickness
Summary: Comfort is what he needs, but Tao finds something more.
Author's notes: big thank you to the lovely mods for their patience. E

Comments

[latinaeinstein]

im baaaaaaaaaaaaack

okay okay okay

i'm so in awe of this. i said it earlier but seriously how did you know all the things. literally all the baby details that always fucking hurt so fucking much about this ship (height difference, hand size difference, suho sweaters, tenderness, gentleness, coexistence and not codependence as a healthy measure of true love, bABY BOY, EDUCATION MAJOR AND EVENTUAL KINDERGARTEN TEACHER SUHO, PEEEEEEEEEEETS)

how did you know????? (either you're a friend or you're psychic and/or thorough with your research)

and okay there were multiple lines that affected me but these ones especially

Tao feels so small, protected. He finds support and stability in Joonmyun’s open arms, in the friendship he offers him. It’s almost nostalgic the careful way he holds Tao carefully. In turn, Tao thinks how easy it is, the way he can reach his hand over to thumb along Joonmyun’s wrist without a second thought.

It’s organic. It’s easy, the way they’ve easily fallen into one another.

Perfect.
if you're a friend you've probably seen me wax poetic on how suho is a safe place for tao, and just yes yes yes yes yES THIS MADE ME ACHE

also
He pushes off and props his chin on Joonmyun’s shoulder, “Hyung.”

And it’s supposed to be cute, but it comes out too laden with wanting, hanging heavily between them. Joonmyun shuts the water off, drying his hands, Tao is five and a half centimeters from him now.

But Joonmyun’s turning, warm mouth crashing into Tao’s, and this is the first time Tao isn’t the only one full of desperate need.

Tao wants to savor the taste that is Joonmyun, caress and commit every inch of his mouth to memory.

This isn’t meant to be anything more than some mutual fulfillment, a progression of their friendship, a way to comfort.

Nothing more.

Nothing at all.

So Tao presses into his smaller body, letting the edge of the counter dig into Joonmyun’s waist, tangling his fingers into pretty soft brown hair. It smells like coconut, he knows. Tao sucks on his adam’s apple, careful not to leave a mark.

This is not his to claim, Joonmyun’s not his to want. Not like this.
gOD THE ENTIRE FIFTH KISS SCENE THOUGH OH GOD THE LONGING AND JUST UGH HEARTWRENCHING ACCEPTANCE THAT SUHO DOESN'T WANT HIM BACK, NOT THE SAME WAY
IT HURT IT HURT IT HURT

and just like ahhhhhhhhhh that buildup of longing and want, yk. that fifth kiss when it all bubbles over and then falls apart and tao's heart is collapsing (and mine along with his) and ohhhhhhhh suho's apology and his stuttering awkward confession and and and gorgeous, perfect, blissful domesticity with hot sex ;;
like like like

i had to stop so many times while reading this. it seriously took me almost an hour because i kept stopping to stare up at my ceiling from being so overwhelmed. i also sputtered a lot and had to put down my phone a bunch, too

thank you for writing this
for meeeeeeee
and so perfectly and poignantly and ahhhhhhh

in rereading for the sake of commenting, i have hurt myself anew

[chestexplosion]

wooooow im so glad you liked this

i cried a lot when writing it haha

suuuuutaaaaooo can you believe i used to hate this pairing out of my pure dislike for certain writing //

anyways all the tiny things are also my favorite things entonces
yes

i was just--important things to me that must matter in this pairing and healthy loving and bbys
bless your long comments are always wonderful