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Sick of cryin
Tired of tryin
Yea Im Smilin
But inside Im Diein
I have never heard such sad words that have such meaning. I heard this a while back and I thought wow something so simple yet so wonderful. That short little phrase means so much to so many. I sit here at night and think of all these different people that try so hard to hide everything and maybe its just a curse for me or maybe its this way for everyone. But I see right thru each and everyone of their covers, their sheilds, the walls they try to hide themselves within. I am one of these people. Seeing me in person most of you could probably never guess all the pain that I have inside. I used to be so very good at hiding it but all of a sudden its like I dont know how anymore. Maybe it just seems that way to me, god I hope thats all it is, but I dont think the act is working so well anymore. Its been 2 or 3 days that have seemed like this. I all of a sudden just feel like breakin down and crying and I cant stand that. I hate that more than anything in the world. I cant stand crying. I honestly wish that I didnt have the tears to cry. If I had one wish that would probably be it. No I take that back. It would probably be to wish that I didnt need anything to wish for. Shit that would be nice. Dontcha think??
Well shit enough of my sob story ramblings. Im tired. Im out.
Tired of tryin
Yea Im Smilin
But inside Im Diein
I have never heard such sad words that have such meaning. I heard this a while back and I thought wow something so simple yet so wonderful. That short little phrase means so much to so many. I sit here at night and think of all these different people that try so hard to hide everything and maybe its just a curse for me or maybe its this way for everyone. But I see right thru each and everyone of their covers, their sheilds, the walls they try to hide themselves within. I am one of these people. Seeing me in person most of you could probably never guess all the pain that I have inside. I used to be so very good at hiding it but all of a sudden its like I dont know how anymore. Maybe it just seems that way to me, god I hope thats all it is, but I dont think the act is working so well anymore. Its been 2 or 3 days that have seemed like this. I all of a sudden just feel like breakin down and crying and I cant stand that. I hate that more than anything in the world. I cant stand crying. I honestly wish that I didnt have the tears to cry. If I had one wish that would probably be it. No I take that back. It would probably be to wish that I didnt need anything to wish for. Shit that would be nice. Dontcha think??
Well shit enough of my sob story ramblings. Im tired. Im out.