Randomly Randomnessessesssssssssssss r a n d o m
Nothing personal asshole, I just dont hold back. I do what I want, when and how I want it.You cant stop this juggernaut people. Im live and in living color. Fuck you.
So hows it goin out in El Jay land?
Life is simply put. Its life. Im fine an dandy cotton candy(dont get wet until its is in yer mouth she told me ;) I am having marginal fun doing things these days. Got to hang out with Melissa. That was like old times....I kicked her ass at MK Deceptions. Man I rule. Must suck being everyone else. haha losers :P
Waitin on a call from Raw-Dawg. That fucker may have ditched me tonite. O well. He wants to get on some snow, and I understand that. But at least Jolene is willin to hang. She aint no WIMP. Lets see, what else is going on....OH. I think I hate people. I mean I hate ignorance, an most people are, but people irritate the shit outta me. Half the time I just get the urge to punch some annoying people in the face and walk away on to the next. Pull yer head from yer asses dipshits. Stop bugging me with worthless time wasting things. Just get along with everyone to the best of your ability and stop whining to me when your hypocrite ass was doing the same thing 2 minutes ago. I have better things to do like tryin to breathe an what not. I might dislike alot of people but I at least for the sake of any hassle get along with people. I dont know whether this is patience or tolerance.
*sips beer*
I need a pool table. Im thinking of buying a house this year. That way me an the pool table can live together. I want to just play pool, work out and be lazy for the rest of my life. But then reality sets in. DER. Work to make money. Maybe I should be a whore. I bet I could make at least 5 bucks a week. Slappin some ass or something. Course I get hit on by 46 year old women....who tend to stop into my workplace more than ever to look me up an down. lol. Everyone teases me now. HEY your girlfriend is here. hahahahaha. Whatever. Whats funnier is that lately everyone keeps tellin me that I look like im barely old enough to drink...and last night hardly old enough to buy my smokes. I was like WHAT? Everyone has always thought I looked fuckin 32. lol. Made me giggle like a donkey with a gerbil wedged up his ass singing a 70's classic hit. (thanks joe cartoon)
*break time*
Damn bright ball of hell fire in the sky. lol. Hate it I do.
Anyways as I continue this randomness, I am sure no one really reads it. But that is really not what I am here for. THis helps me to relax and talk about my meager life. Am I living it to the fullest? Am I sucking the marrow from the bone that is life. Well maybe I am. And maybe I choke on the remains. Fine with me either way. Im never on the computer anymore. I realized to have a life is to get away from AIM and the such. Its slightly childish, BUT it is a decent way to keep in touch with people. But it is not my structure for a social life. Matter of fact I think it is destoying to social lifes, because we can get so comfortable behind a dumb ass computer screen. There is air to breathe out there. Fo sho.
Ive grown in some ways oh dear El Jay. Nothing phases me. Well things piss me off, but no phasing. Happy, sad, depressed, love...useless. Back to square one I think. I have recentered myself into the great color that is grey. At least I think so....at least that is my goal in life in some way. I call shit as I see it. Know one likes it they can kiss my ass. Ill put you in a head lock and give you a nuggie so bad your scalp will bleed. Haha funny mental picture.
So I have been reading one of the best books I have ever read. Its Marilyn Mansons Long hard road outta hell. So much respect as was. That much more now. The man is more intelligent than most of us. No one just knows it. But he has to be in his line of work...or the way I guess he conducts it. lol. I finished it in a week or so. I couldnt put it down. He writes so real. I cant believe the way he pulls you in. Now Im reading Johnny Cash's autobiography. Talk about different ends of the spectrum. I think I should finish my book sometime....
*chugging*
Not a fan of beer. On the occasion I spose.
The house is quiet. Almsot seems restless. Like at any moment something crazy or badass is about to happen. Its almost creepy. Im kinda glad no one is here...helps me think a bit. Specially after the day I had at work. But I have tommorrow off which means fun for me tonite! One way or another Im gonna make a memory outta this eve. Then Ill stab it and watch it bleed some life. I need to rock out. I need loud music. Hard metal. Right now.
*throws some Black Dhalia Murder in*
There now that is much better. I guess fuck the peace and quiet. Ill just fuckin rock out. WORD.
*gets new beer*
I got some devil horns to throw in the air right now damn it!!
You see huh? What do you see? Tell me. I wish to know. Salvation? heh. You can not sedate all the things you hate. A shame. I wear this smile on my face for a few reasons. Some Ill keep in. For rockin out. For pool. For the boys in Elsie! For getting outta this damn house every night, course not that it is bad here at all, hell I love the people here...but I go crazy just sittin here. My demon wings need to spread and stretch. Dag. Foo-G and Eric have two great fiancees. Like Blair and Nikki, these girls love unconditional, and are down to earth. Shit Jolee was talkin shit to me while we were playin video games lol. It was funny. And cute. Makes me jealous for about 2 seconds. I cant wait till the weddings! SHIT SON! Gonna be a blast. *sigh* ALWAYS the brides maid but never the bride lol.
Though in my own way I am weak. Im much more stronger and confident than ever. Im a fuckin flirt now I think...I always did a bit. But it is funny, an I hand out my number alot. Not that anything really pans out...and TRUST ME...not that I remotely care what so ever. Im just enjoyin the night life again. It is where I belong. I mean come on. Im theshadowalker. The Immortalshadow. I breathe in Darkness. I am the shadows. I am the darkness. The dark Nite. The Nite Rider. Im am all and everything know one will ever be. And that is the way I like it. Im in control. I do it my way. And nothing else matters.....
Here I am world. On the Rampage. Fuckin look out.
*ninja vanish*
John is worried about me. Says I have thrown up a "red flag" and that some people collectively are concerned. Im like what?! I appreciate it..I do..but Im good. No need to worry over me.
So hows it goin out in El Jay land?
Life is simply put. Its life. Im fine an dandy cotton candy(dont get wet until its is in yer mouth she told me ;) I am having marginal fun doing things these days. Got to hang out with Melissa. That was like old times....I kicked her ass at MK Deceptions. Man I rule. Must suck being everyone else. haha losers :P
Waitin on a call from Raw-Dawg. That fucker may have ditched me tonite. O well. He wants to get on some snow, and I understand that. But at least Jolene is willin to hang. She aint no WIMP. Lets see, what else is going on....OH. I think I hate people. I mean I hate ignorance, an most people are, but people irritate the shit outta me. Half the time I just get the urge to punch some annoying people in the face and walk away on to the next. Pull yer head from yer asses dipshits. Stop bugging me with worthless time wasting things. Just get along with everyone to the best of your ability and stop whining to me when your hypocrite ass was doing the same thing 2 minutes ago. I have better things to do like tryin to breathe an what not. I might dislike alot of people but I at least for the sake of any hassle get along with people. I dont know whether this is patience or tolerance.
*sips beer*
I need a pool table. Im thinking of buying a house this year. That way me an the pool table can live together. I want to just play pool, work out and be lazy for the rest of my life. But then reality sets in. DER. Work to make money. Maybe I should be a whore. I bet I could make at least 5 bucks a week. Slappin some ass or something. Course I get hit on by 46 year old women....who tend to stop into my workplace more than ever to look me up an down. lol. Everyone teases me now. HEY your girlfriend is here. hahahahaha. Whatever. Whats funnier is that lately everyone keeps tellin me that I look like im barely old enough to drink...and last night hardly old enough to buy my smokes. I was like WHAT? Everyone has always thought I looked fuckin 32. lol. Made me giggle like a donkey with a gerbil wedged up his ass singing a 70's classic hit. (thanks joe cartoon)
*break time*
Damn bright ball of hell fire in the sky. lol. Hate it I do.
Anyways as I continue this randomness, I am sure no one really reads it. But that is really not what I am here for. THis helps me to relax and talk about my meager life. Am I living it to the fullest? Am I sucking the marrow from the bone that is life. Well maybe I am. And maybe I choke on the remains. Fine with me either way. Im never on the computer anymore. I realized to have a life is to get away from AIM and the such. Its slightly childish, BUT it is a decent way to keep in touch with people. But it is not my structure for a social life. Matter of fact I think it is destoying to social lifes, because we can get so comfortable behind a dumb ass computer screen. There is air to breathe out there. Fo sho.
Ive grown in some ways oh dear El Jay. Nothing phases me. Well things piss me off, but no phasing. Happy, sad, depressed, love...useless. Back to square one I think. I have recentered myself into the great color that is grey. At least I think so....at least that is my goal in life in some way. I call shit as I see it. Know one likes it they can kiss my ass. Ill put you in a head lock and give you a nuggie so bad your scalp will bleed. Haha funny mental picture.
So I have been reading one of the best books I have ever read. Its Marilyn Mansons Long hard road outta hell. So much respect as was. That much more now. The man is more intelligent than most of us. No one just knows it. But he has to be in his line of work...or the way I guess he conducts it. lol. I finished it in a week or so. I couldnt put it down. He writes so real. I cant believe the way he pulls you in. Now Im reading Johnny Cash's autobiography. Talk about different ends of the spectrum. I think I should finish my book sometime....
*chugging*
Not a fan of beer. On the occasion I spose.
The house is quiet. Almsot seems restless. Like at any moment something crazy or badass is about to happen. Its almost creepy. Im kinda glad no one is here...helps me think a bit. Specially after the day I had at work. But I have tommorrow off which means fun for me tonite! One way or another Im gonna make a memory outta this eve. Then Ill stab it and watch it bleed some life. I need to rock out. I need loud music. Hard metal. Right now.
*throws some Black Dhalia Murder in*
There now that is much better. I guess fuck the peace and quiet. Ill just fuckin rock out. WORD.
*gets new beer*
I got some devil horns to throw in the air right now damn it!!
You see huh? What do you see? Tell me. I wish to know. Salvation? heh. You can not sedate all the things you hate. A shame. I wear this smile on my face for a few reasons. Some Ill keep in. For rockin out. For pool. For the boys in Elsie! For getting outta this damn house every night, course not that it is bad here at all, hell I love the people here...but I go crazy just sittin here. My demon wings need to spread and stretch. Dag. Foo-G and Eric have two great fiancees. Like Blair and Nikki, these girls love unconditional, and are down to earth. Shit Jolee was talkin shit to me while we were playin video games lol. It was funny. And cute. Makes me jealous for about 2 seconds. I cant wait till the weddings! SHIT SON! Gonna be a blast. *sigh* ALWAYS the brides maid but never the bride lol.
Though in my own way I am weak. Im much more stronger and confident than ever. Im a fuckin flirt now I think...I always did a bit. But it is funny, an I hand out my number alot. Not that anything really pans out...and TRUST ME...not that I remotely care what so ever. Im just enjoyin the night life again. It is where I belong. I mean come on. Im theshadowalker. The Immortalshadow. I breathe in Darkness. I am the shadows. I am the darkness. The dark Nite. The Nite Rider. Im am all and everything know one will ever be. And that is the way I like it. Im in control. I do it my way. And nothing else matters.....
Here I am world. On the Rampage. Fuckin look out.
*ninja vanish*
John is worried about me. Says I have thrown up a "red flag" and that some people collectively are concerned. Im like what?! I appreciate it..I do..but Im good. No need to worry over me.