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it used to be i could could come on here and words would just flow without hesitation. now i find myself struggling to put together anything to try and relay whats been going on in my life.
work is backed up to no end and they refuse to hire someone to help, they just keep substituting with a diferent manager nearly everyday, who are in short...CLUELESS. sure they can type up a letter and answer the phone everyonce in a while, but that doesnt help me any when the letter ends up being incorrect and they have to ask me the answers to the questions the customer on the phone has.
rediculous...but i bite my tounge and smile and try not to stress too much about it.
the past few weeks or so i've kinda been out of it. mainly due to my godfather passing last thursday. its just not fair that ive spent the last 2 years getting to know him only to end up loosing him again. and the last few months i totally distanced myself from him thinking that if i didnt see him when he was really sick, then that would mean it wasn't true. stupid i know, but i've never lost someone close, besides jenny, so i don't know how to deal with situations of that nature. im not good with good-byes... i'd avoid them completley if i could.
im not sure what the hell i'm doing when it comes to dating. i have a feeling the decisions ive made up until this point haven't been very good, but even knowing that, it hasn't seemed to stop me. i just keep telling myself, soon he'll be at the boston location living and breating that restaraunt and whatever this is that we have, will die out, and it doesn't bother me one bit... hah.. yeah, right.
which brings me to realize that something may be wrong with me.. i have a tendency to put all my marbles into one basket and in my mind thats the only option im left with.. not anymore though. im turning over a new leaf! i want to go out, socialize, meet new people and just have a good time. im at a point where i just don't care anymore, and im not going to sit around and worry about whats going to happen in the future. i have enough trouble trying to figure out what the hell i'm going to do tonite! =P
well on that note, i should probably go do that, and maybe try and catch up on some of the work here as well.
♥ shannon
work is backed up to no end and they refuse to hire someone to help, they just keep substituting with a diferent manager nearly everyday, who are in short...CLUELESS. sure they can type up a letter and answer the phone everyonce in a while, but that doesnt help me any when the letter ends up being incorrect and they have to ask me the answers to the questions the customer on the phone has.
rediculous...but i bite my tounge and smile and try not to stress too much about it.
the past few weeks or so i've kinda been out of it. mainly due to my godfather passing last thursday. its just not fair that ive spent the last 2 years getting to know him only to end up loosing him again. and the last few months i totally distanced myself from him thinking that if i didnt see him when he was really sick, then that would mean it wasn't true. stupid i know, but i've never lost someone close, besides jenny, so i don't know how to deal with situations of that nature. im not good with good-byes... i'd avoid them completley if i could.
im not sure what the hell i'm doing when it comes to dating. i have a feeling the decisions ive made up until this point haven't been very good, but even knowing that, it hasn't seemed to stop me. i just keep telling myself, soon he'll be at the boston location living and breating that restaraunt and whatever this is that we have, will die out, and it doesn't bother me one bit... hah.. yeah, right.
which brings me to realize that something may be wrong with me.. i have a tendency to put all my marbles into one basket and in my mind thats the only option im left with.. not anymore though. im turning over a new leaf! i want to go out, socialize, meet new people and just have a good time. im at a point where i just don't care anymore, and im not going to sit around and worry about whats going to happen in the future. i have enough trouble trying to figure out what the hell i'm going to do tonite! =P
well on that note, i should probably go do that, and maybe try and catch up on some of the work here as well.
♥ shannon