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today is just not my day. i don't even think i shoulda woke up today.lets ses. last night i couldn't sleep even if it were to save my soul. i went to sleep this morning at 7:00 am. and could not stay asleep at all. i woke at 12:30 this afternoon. and it sucked. it just did. lets see well i was playin with the baby and she rolled off the couch. and fell onto the floor. of course my mother had to make a huge thing outta it. she told everyone that i threw the baby on the floor because i wouldn't change her. why in the hell would i throw a baby onto the floor??!! i wouldn't. now i'm just so anxious. and i don't even wanna touch another baby let alone another kid. i just dk anymore. and i'm just real worried. worried about loads of things. like will i be able to pay the rent and bills on time and have enough money left for things that the house needs such as detergent and bleach? i'm just so worried. thinking about everything.am i really going to be able to do this? seriously? i just dk. i just worry way tooo much. and it drives me insane. along with all the worrying there's all the shit people have been saying about me. and id wanna hear it anymore. why can't they just leave me the hell alone??!! just please leave me alone. let me be. gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!