163 - Hindsight is always 20/20
I never should have got myself involved with Anne.
((Locked to those who know of Duncan's Immortality))
You really would have thought that I would have learned my lesson after Tessa, wouldn't you? I had tried my best to save her. After her kidnapping, I had fought to free her in the darkness, and even as I still fought her kidnapper I knew she was safe. Tessa was safe, we were engaged, and all I had to do was get out of there alive.
When I walked out, I found her dead along with Richie. Just another empty, meaningless death. Part of me wishes that I hadn't fought so hard, and another part of me wishes that Tessa had simply died before I could rescue her. At least then, her death would have had meaning. But to be shot by some punk trying to mug you?
Better to involve yourself with Immortals, or not to involve yourself at all, I'd thought, until I met Anne. Dr. Anne Lindsey. She was bright and... well, everything that Tessa wasn't, which was probably the reason I thought it might work out. There was one thing they had in common, though; they were both mortal.
It's not even the fact that they could die on you, the way Tessa did to me, the way Heather did to Connor... it's not even the fact that I'll never grow old while wrinkles will line her face. It's not the fact that there's a secret between the two of you and you've got to decide when and if you actually reveal that secret. No, the real problem is that we all eventually tell our lovers the secret and it puts them in harm's way.
The real problem is how we tell them the truth, because let's face it, there's only one way to prove to someone that you're Immortal; you have to die. I shot myself with Tessa's help to prove it to her, but Anne had to witness it in the opera house as I supposedly fell to my death. I didn't tell her, and even though we eventually got back together, even though she named her child after my mother... it was never the same. She knew the truth, and our relationship was permanently changed after that.
Muse : Duncan MacLeod
Fandom : Highlander
Word Count : 374
((Locked to those who know of Duncan's Immortality))
You really would have thought that I would have learned my lesson after Tessa, wouldn't you? I had tried my best to save her. After her kidnapping, I had fought to free her in the darkness, and even as I still fought her kidnapper I knew she was safe. Tessa was safe, we were engaged, and all I had to do was get out of there alive.
When I walked out, I found her dead along with Richie. Just another empty, meaningless death. Part of me wishes that I hadn't fought so hard, and another part of me wishes that Tessa had simply died before I could rescue her. At least then, her death would have had meaning. But to be shot by some punk trying to mug you?
Better to involve yourself with Immortals, or not to involve yourself at all, I'd thought, until I met Anne. Dr. Anne Lindsey. She was bright and... well, everything that Tessa wasn't, which was probably the reason I thought it might work out. There was one thing they had in common, though; they were both mortal.
It's not even the fact that they could die on you, the way Tessa did to me, the way Heather did to Connor... it's not even the fact that I'll never grow old while wrinkles will line her face. It's not the fact that there's a secret between the two of you and you've got to decide when and if you actually reveal that secret. No, the real problem is that we all eventually tell our lovers the secret and it puts them in harm's way.
The real problem is how we tell them the truth, because let's face it, there's only one way to prove to someone that you're Immortal; you have to die. I shot myself with Tessa's help to prove it to her, but Anne had to witness it in the opera house as I supposedly fell to my death. I didn't tell her, and even though we eventually got back together, even though she named her child after my mother... it was never the same. She knew the truth, and our relationship was permanently changed after that.
Muse : Duncan MacLeod
Fandom : Highlander
Word Count : 374