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I just got back from the worst trip back home. I hate how much everything is changing. I can't stand thinking about losing everything that I care about or hold important in my heart and mind. I don't see how something thats been helping to keep you sane can make you go mad so easily. Well, I take that back. I guesse that without them I no longer have the peace of mind I need to stay calm. To deal with things rationally. Lifes too difficult to be alone sometimes, and I just got deserted. They always said best friends are forever, I hoped for that, but I guesse one can't expect that. Either way, I at least thought forever might last longer than 6 months... so thanks. Thanks for what we had and Im not giving up. I just can't sit here hoping, and hurting. I can't deal with trying and getting let down constantly. So heres my thoughts, and now I'll be quiet. All I can do is wait and hope things will change, only this time... for the better.