Conceptually speaking..?
I don't like not talking to someone you really like. And someone you're really close to. There's nothing that can really describe how much it hurts to do that, even though you know you have to, and it (may) probably turn out to be better for you in the long run. These couple of days are going to be quite 'conceptual' in a sense that my 'real' days are like this:
I have individual oral and CAS due on Friday, and a maths test that will probably go horribly wrong on Thursday. I'm majorly freaking out for both of those, as well as the whole 'mocks are in a month' thing that's really freaking scary.
And... continue elaboration. Etc, etc.
I've always hated confrontation. And things that involve me having to talk about what I think. I'd rather type or write it all out - my words are better placed on paper (or a screen?) than verbally. I think something goes on between my brain and my mouth that just makes me sound like I'm an idiot when I speak in class or to teachers and the like. Which makes it hard. When I'm really opposed to something, but have not the voice to talk about it. I swear I need some kind of mouthpiece. That's not me. O.o Strange.
And arguments make me feel worse once I feel bad. Not even arguments that are directed at me, just arguments in general. Between other people. Also loud noises and people talking to me in loud voices, but yeah.
Also. I think this year has just about ruined dating for me. For a what I can kind of foresee as a long time. I don't think I have any nerve endings left where that's supposed to be. Which is sad. And probably stupid too, but I think the next time anything remotely interesting happens in this department will be when I fall madly in love again and have it hopefully not screw up like last time. But yes. Longgggggg time.
I have individual oral and CAS due on Friday, and a maths test that will probably go horribly wrong on Thursday. I'm majorly freaking out for both of those, as well as the whole 'mocks are in a month' thing that's really freaking scary.
And... continue elaboration. Etc, etc.
I've always hated confrontation. And things that involve me having to talk about what I think. I'd rather type or write it all out - my words are better placed on paper (or a screen?) than verbally. I think something goes on between my brain and my mouth that just makes me sound like I'm an idiot when I speak in class or to teachers and the like. Which makes it hard. When I'm really opposed to something, but have not the voice to talk about it. I swear I need some kind of mouthpiece. That's not me. O.o Strange.
And arguments make me feel worse once I feel bad. Not even arguments that are directed at me, just arguments in general. Between other people. Also loud noises and people talking to me in loud voices, but yeah.
Also. I think this year has just about ruined dating for me. For a what I can kind of foresee as a long time. I don't think I have any nerve endings left where that's supposed to be. Which is sad. And probably stupid too, but I think the next time anything remotely interesting happens in this department will be when I fall madly in love again and have it hopefully not screw up like last time. But yes. Longgggggg time.