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I need to vent so if you choose to over look this entry I wont be upset. I have to go over to Alex and Pams Saturday morning and my aunts. Fuck VA. Lateyly I have thought about alot of shit, Alex can burn for all I care, he tried to get me to stop talking to Shaun. And I realize now I was never in love with him, yes I cared for him very deeply, but I always cared for Shaun more, there were times in Alex and mine where I completely forgot I was suppose to be with Alex. I remember for almost a month me and Shaun barely talk and I felt as if me and Shaun had broken up, but we hadnt cuz we werent even dating, me and Alex were. I feel dumb I should have realized all along that I wasnt suppose to be with Alex. I wasted a year of time Shaun and me could have been together, I feel so dumb.
My mother is driving me crazy. We talked and decided that I should go on the shot since it last for 3 months and is easy to keep up, I mean Shaun said that he knows a place that you pay $50 for it and I think it's well worth it. Well for the past 2 weeks she has been saying she will take me to the doctor or she will call. Well this morning I set my alarm and everything to go, she keeps saying tomorrow. I hate when she does this shit. If it is forher it has to be done that day but if it is for me it can wait a week or two. I guess I dont mean as much to her as herself. Or my problems or what I want arent as imporant. And she wants to know the reasons for so many things I have done that would either kill me or get me away from her.
My mother is driving me crazy. We talked and decided that I should go on the shot since it last for 3 months and is easy to keep up, I mean Shaun said that he knows a place that you pay $50 for it and I think it's well worth it. Well for the past 2 weeks she has been saying she will take me to the doctor or she will call. Well this morning I set my alarm and everything to go, she keeps saying tomorrow. I hate when she does this shit. If it is forher it has to be done that day but if it is for me it can wait a week or two. I guess I dont mean as much to her as herself. Or my problems or what I want arent as imporant. And she wants to know the reasons for so many things I have done that would either kill me or get me away from her.