What the hell, why not.
I guess the best way to start this is with "Yes, I'm drunk." I happen to think this is the best time to update one's livejournal because you tend to be honest. I really like her family. Her mother can be extremely personal. He step-father can be a fun down to Earth guy to be around. Her sisters laugh at me when I make jokes. Their boyfriends can be fun as well. Tom is a very personable guy, and Jason lets me pick on him in a way that I think he knows is just in a very friendly manner.
I went to the Blooming Grove Fire Departments "Festivus". I spent the first 20 minutes alone, but she smiled and was happy to see me, which was enough. I found her family and decided to join in the festivities. I've decided that country music becomes much more enjoyable as you consume more alcohol. She kissed me on the cheek first, and as I was leaving she kissed me on the lips, at the FD. This may not seem like much but I happen to think its a big step forward. I'm crazy about her. She has so many things going for her. She cares about people, if she didn't she wouldn't be a fire fighter. I've never known anyone that makes me so happy to see them happy before in my life, and I told her so. I hope she never loses that. Yes, things have changed over the last few months. No, I don't know what that means.
Her mother told me not to give up on her, and I don't plan to. I've fought hard in the past, and I think she's worth continuing to fight for. I want her to be happy, truly. I also want her to be happy with me. She has so much potential.
I want to see her tomorrow night, and she said that she would. Her mother told me that I should also "feel free to stop by" to see her and talk to her.
I'd go on more of an undirected rant if I was sober I suppose, but I leave with this: I'm crazy about her. I want her to know that, I think she does, but I won't stop until I'm sure of it. I want to be with her, and now the biggest thing that scares me is that I'll get transferred far far away, leaving her behind. I'll invite her to come with, but I won't ask her to. That scares me, because I don't think she will.
Allison, I'm crazy about you! Every issue and problem aside, I want to be with you and I intend to show it by being myself. You're amazing in so many ways.
I went to the Blooming Grove Fire Departments "Festivus". I spent the first 20 minutes alone, but she smiled and was happy to see me, which was enough. I found her family and decided to join in the festivities. I've decided that country music becomes much more enjoyable as you consume more alcohol. She kissed me on the cheek first, and as I was leaving she kissed me on the lips, at the FD. This may not seem like much but I happen to think its a big step forward. I'm crazy about her. She has so many things going for her. She cares about people, if she didn't she wouldn't be a fire fighter. I've never known anyone that makes me so happy to see them happy before in my life, and I told her so. I hope she never loses that. Yes, things have changed over the last few months. No, I don't know what that means.
Her mother told me not to give up on her, and I don't plan to. I've fought hard in the past, and I think she's worth continuing to fight for. I want her to be happy, truly. I also want her to be happy with me. She has so much potential.
I want to see her tomorrow night, and she said that she would. Her mother told me that I should also "feel free to stop by" to see her and talk to her.
I'd go on more of an undirected rant if I was sober I suppose, but I leave with this: I'm crazy about her. I want her to know that, I think she does, but I won't stop until I'm sure of it. I want to be with her, and now the biggest thing that scares me is that I'll get transferred far far away, leaving her behind. I'll invite her to come with, but I won't ask her to. That scares me, because I don't think she will.
Allison, I'm crazy about you! Every issue and problem aside, I want to be with you and I intend to show it by being myself. You're amazing in so many ways.