make the dead feel deader
i dont really know why i still have this lame ass journal but tonight i felt the need to write in it. so there.
i went and visited sarah in the LBC finally. it was good to get away from danville and fun to see her. however, i didnt really dig the last couple of days there due to a faggot ruining them. it sucks to know someone i was beginning to really care about is moving and that everything is going down the drain bc he is having anxiety attacks. its bullshit and i sometimes wish i never started liking him bc it got me no where. hes too good of a guy to stay mad at but FUCK i hate this feeling. i cant seem to cover up that i am really sad about the whole situation, and no matter what i do i cant seem to get out of this funk. i want to fix things and am hoping we can get together sometime tomorrow to talk. but then again he would have to return my phone calls / pick them up in order for us to see eachother at all. fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i need a change in my routine. i need hapiness. i need to get out of danville.
on a happier note...ive made a hair appointment. im putting goldly blonde in my hair and its gonna look like pure sex. lovely. thats all.
♥♥♥
i went and visited sarah in the LBC finally. it was good to get away from danville and fun to see her. however, i didnt really dig the last couple of days there due to a faggot ruining them. it sucks to know someone i was beginning to really care about is moving and that everything is going down the drain bc he is having anxiety attacks. its bullshit and i sometimes wish i never started liking him bc it got me no where. hes too good of a guy to stay mad at but FUCK i hate this feeling. i cant seem to cover up that i am really sad about the whole situation, and no matter what i do i cant seem to get out of this funk. i want to fix things and am hoping we can get together sometime tomorrow to talk. but then again he would have to return my phone calls / pick them up in order for us to see eachother at all. fuck fuck fuck fuck.
i need a change in my routine. i need hapiness. i need to get out of danville.
on a happier note...ive made a hair appointment. im putting goldly blonde in my hair and its gonna look like pure sex. lovely. thats all.
♥♥♥