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this entry is done mainly for allen and marci
Allen-Apparently you didnt hear me clearly. I could care less that marci tells you more than she tells me, but its not true that she tells you everything like you said. "I've gone through a bunch of crap right now, stuff that nobody knows about..."-marci, 2 days ago. she said NOBODY...that means not even you. Once again, I dont really care. You shouldnt even be involved anyways. Marci is the one who takes everything out on me...she knows that and i know that. It shouldnt even concern you because you have nothing to do with it. You dont need to butt in. You didnt need to pick a fight because I told marci I dont want to be friends with her anymore. If that means not being friends with you as well, so be it.
Marci-you taking all your anger out on me isnt the only reason why i left our friendship, although it is a major part. We had a conversation about something 2 months ago, and I was getting depressed because I knew it was going to happen, and it is. Our group used to be you, stephanie, allen, me, aubrey, parker, brian, and katie, but katie kinda got involved with john and left, parker and brian moved, and allen went out with and broke up with aubrey. The 4 of us was all that was left. I said that if you and allen ever broke up, we would have the same awkward feeling when we got together as when allen dumped aubrey, and then our group would be gone. I was wrong. you two may not feel it, cause you are in denial, but the awkward feeling is already there...you didnt even need to break up for it. everytime we get together (which isnt often because of allens mom, work, stephanies play practice...etc...etc...) you and allen go off and cuddle in the corner, and that just leaves me and stephanie there alone...wondering what we should do. Our shindigs have recently become more of a time for you two to be alone than the 4 of us to hang out. I realized this was happening, and I want to leave the group. I would rather save trouble for myself and leave now and find new friends, than to have that awkward feeling whenever we get together. Im out, and I would like for you two to repect my choice.
oh, and marci, you know that cd allen gave you? i believe you call it your P.A.L.S. cd. allen didnt make it, i did