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i wrote a super long email to shinbee. i felt a little guilty because i haven't emailed her since her departure. she pretty much understands though because she has actually lived w/ me and seen all of my terrors. that's probably why she is probably the only one who's going to understand me the best. of course she doesn't understand nor do i want her to. i hate it when ppl say, "oh, i know what ur going through," because you know what? u fuckin don't understand!
back to a more happier tone, we still have another week. my brother's still here. unfortunately, i can't go to a local asian party that's going on at my friend's house but at least i can take a last look at bio before going on to school.
even more happier note, this is actually the last week of break before going back to mys. let's c if i can't do the surprise make up day and have everyone glare at me. i'll tell u y i love having them glare at me. because i love pissing ppl off and also because i love getting myself pissed off. how am i pissed off? because ppl assume that ppl who put on a whole load of makeup are whores and i absolutely hate that. therefore their glaring makes my temper rise and i love having my temper rise because sometimes, u gotta love bitching in ur diary. wow, i'm a bitch.
turns out that the camry isn't going to be mine. it's officially my brother's baby but that's ok. i can drive the crappy old buick. i hate the color. it's like, a disgusting tan. i hate tan brown cars. i love the silver white that the camry is.
i know a whole lot of u are like, i really don't like her attitude change but, uh. yeah, i don't care what you think. this is me and i'm proud to be me. not going to change because u want me to. alanna knows what's going on. it's definitely happening now. the thing is, the mind has never changed first before so i'm going through this a little bit differently from the other gals of the family.
my life is starting to go into its highs. it's rich.
much love ♥
back to a more happier tone, we still have another week. my brother's still here. unfortunately, i can't go to a local asian party that's going on at my friend's house but at least i can take a last look at bio before going on to school.
even more happier note, this is actually the last week of break before going back to mys. let's c if i can't do the surprise make up day and have everyone glare at me. i'll tell u y i love having them glare at me. because i love pissing ppl off and also because i love getting myself pissed off. how am i pissed off? because ppl assume that ppl who put on a whole load of makeup are whores and i absolutely hate that. therefore their glaring makes my temper rise and i love having my temper rise because sometimes, u gotta love bitching in ur diary. wow, i'm a bitch.
turns out that the camry isn't going to be mine. it's officially my brother's baby but that's ok. i can drive the crappy old buick. i hate the color. it's like, a disgusting tan. i hate tan brown cars. i love the silver white that the camry is.
i know a whole lot of u are like, i really don't like her attitude change but, uh. yeah, i don't care what you think. this is me and i'm proud to be me. not going to change because u want me to. alanna knows what's going on. it's definitely happening now. the thing is, the mind has never changed first before so i'm going through this a little bit differently from the other gals of the family.
my life is starting to go into its highs. it's rich.
much love ♥