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i'm always a little skeptical about things that happen too easily in life. Oaxaca is a good example. I was sort of like....WTF AM I DOING for about 6 months until i finally made it here and everything became....real.
Quito has had difficulties too. things are scary when you just throw everything away to go live somewhere new for a long period of time. it's hard not knowing anyone, not knowing where to shop, where to eat, not knowing the language. and now it's happening all over again....am i ready to move, again?
it seems too easy that i could go from quito back to oaxaca until september. too easy! i could have a job teaching english and get a decent salary that would allow me pay rent here and eat. hmmm.....why am i skeptical about doing what i want in life? why am i skeptical of being consistently happy? whenever i get really truly happy, i always seem to stop myself...i don't let myself fall when i should.
anyways, i have an interview for teaching english here in mexico someitme within these next 2 weeks. craaaaaaaaazy
anyways. i had the best day ever with my host mama today. she's the fucking best. we talked about how we hate amercans. she talked about each of her kids. i wanted to tell her soooooooooo bad what happened the week she was gone but i refrained. i have a feeling she knows. she's one of those mexican mamas that knows everything. i love her.
we went to the market which is always always always fun. regherigheriughgih guhhhhh i hate that i fell in love with mexico
in other news i definitely procrastinated with my UC application. not smart, lindsey. not smart.
i need to talk to joel. time is dwindling down. i have about 20 days left here and i've been in love with him since day 1. okay, saying "in love" is a little ridiculous, but i definitely can't breathe when near him and almost die when i hear him speak.
but what could i possibly say to him!?!?!?! blehhhhhh. maybe i'll chicken out and just write him a letter that i give him on my last day here.
no! i need to talk to him. THIS WEEK! even my teachers are beginning to talk me into talking to him. it's getting out of hand. but seriously, i regret everyday that passes of which i don't speak to him.
and now, back to the uc app! wompwompwomp
Quito has had difficulties too. things are scary when you just throw everything away to go live somewhere new for a long period of time. it's hard not knowing anyone, not knowing where to shop, where to eat, not knowing the language. and now it's happening all over again....am i ready to move, again?
it seems too easy that i could go from quito back to oaxaca until september. too easy! i could have a job teaching english and get a decent salary that would allow me pay rent here and eat. hmmm.....why am i skeptical about doing what i want in life? why am i skeptical of being consistently happy? whenever i get really truly happy, i always seem to stop myself...i don't let myself fall when i should.
anyways, i have an interview for teaching english here in mexico someitme within these next 2 weeks. craaaaaaaaazy
anyways. i had the best day ever with my host mama today. she's the fucking best. we talked about how we hate amercans. she talked about each of her kids. i wanted to tell her soooooooooo bad what happened the week she was gone but i refrained. i have a feeling she knows. she's one of those mexican mamas that knows everything. i love her.
we went to the market which is always always always fun. regherigheriughgih guhhhhh i hate that i fell in love with mexico
in other news i definitely procrastinated with my UC application. not smart, lindsey. not smart.
i need to talk to joel. time is dwindling down. i have about 20 days left here and i've been in love with him since day 1. okay, saying "in love" is a little ridiculous, but i definitely can't breathe when near him and almost die when i hear him speak.
but what could i possibly say to him!?!?!?! blehhhhhh. maybe i'll chicken out and just write him a letter that i give him on my last day here.
no! i need to talk to him. THIS WEEK! even my teachers are beginning to talk me into talking to him. it's getting out of hand. but seriously, i regret everyday that passes of which i don't speak to him.
and now, back to the uc app! wompwompwomp