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forget the last entry, im stuck on here for a few more minutes i have stuff on my mind i need / want to poor out.
dance, dance, dance.
i cannot decide what i want to do with DANCE.
im only 14 & i have a WAYS to go in studio training. i could become 4545747 x's better before my eyes by my senior year if i keep studio up. one thing in my way: dance team. i love dance team & i tried out this year for the fun of it, not thinking id like it @ all, i just did it cause my friends were & i wanted to try something different. well i tried it, & loved it. i like the new atmosphere & everything. not to mention how much i love performing & being in front of an auidence. we all know how much i love that, lmao. @ studio i only get that chance once a year [well three performances but still like once a year] to do that. & studio has been bothering me so much lately. just the shit & crap. idk i have no room to complain, i hate complainers, & this is going to sound gay & concieted like but i hate getting picked on there. ok whatever i dont get picked on a lot, it just seems like its always me doing something wrong & i like suck there. i know i pay money to get lessons & i dotn do everything right, but thats the thing: what do i do right? seems like im too bad or something. & i dont get the spotlight @ studio @ all & @ dance team i actually get noticed? & people actually tell me i do something GOOD for once. i dont think im that baddd of a dancer.
so i have to choose between the two. i cannot do both. it hurts me so much cause i like both the best. and i know this may sound stupid to you non dancers but it really means a lot of me because dance is all i have known since i was 4. 10 years. thats a hell of a lot to just throw away. idk if i want to just throw all my training away & do dance team, but @ the same time i want to be envolved in my highschool next year & be on the dance team & perform @ games & meet new friends & be w/ the girls! lkfjfghj
IDK, IDK, IDK! the decision is killing me.
i am leaning towards team, but i just don't know if im ready to almost quit studio.
i wont quit it all the way, but i will be @least quitting half.
fdlkgjdfljkjdfh blah blah blah.
im done now, if you read all that, your nuts.
bye.
dance, dance, dance.
i cannot decide what i want to do with DANCE.
im only 14 & i have a WAYS to go in studio training. i could become 4545747 x's better before my eyes by my senior year if i keep studio up. one thing in my way: dance team. i love dance team & i tried out this year for the fun of it, not thinking id like it @ all, i just did it cause my friends were & i wanted to try something different. well i tried it, & loved it. i like the new atmosphere & everything. not to mention how much i love performing & being in front of an auidence. we all know how much i love that, lmao. @ studio i only get that chance once a year [well three performances but still like once a year] to do that. & studio has been bothering me so much lately. just the shit & crap. idk i have no room to complain, i hate complainers, & this is going to sound gay & concieted like but i hate getting picked on there. ok whatever i dont get picked on a lot, it just seems like its always me doing something wrong & i like suck there. i know i pay money to get lessons & i dotn do everything right, but thats the thing: what do i do right? seems like im too bad or something. & i dont get the spotlight @ studio @ all & @ dance team i actually get noticed? & people actually tell me i do something GOOD for once. i dont think im that baddd of a dancer.
so i have to choose between the two. i cannot do both. it hurts me so much cause i like both the best. and i know this may sound stupid to you non dancers but it really means a lot of me because dance is all i have known since i was 4. 10 years. thats a hell of a lot to just throw away. idk if i want to just throw all my training away & do dance team, but @ the same time i want to be envolved in my highschool next year & be on the dance team & perform @ games & meet new friends & be w/ the girls! lkfjfghj
IDK, IDK, IDK! the decision is killing me.
i am leaning towards team, but i just don't know if im ready to almost quit studio.
i wont quit it all the way, but i will be @least quitting half.
fdlkgjdfljkjdfh blah blah blah.
im done now, if you read all that, your nuts.
bye.