I feel sick, and it scares me
uhhh...Today seemed like such a long day, and I felt sick all through it.
Just the thought of food makes me sick now, I just cant handle seeing food, and there is NO REASON for that. Randomly, i just think food is disgusting, and will only make me feel worse than what im feeling now. This whole day I made myself eat a bowl Special K, a tiny kiddie burger from blakes for lunch...and those things are tiny, and some toast at work...and now i feel completely sick like I ate a full course meal with...i duno...a whole pie to finish it off. It's really crazy and it's really scaring me because usually I constantly have an appatite, and even though i sometimes feel self concious of myself and my body, I never thought it would ever effect my daily life, and feelings, and ...eating habits, but if this goes on a few more days it might be as serious as i think it could be. Usually around this time I would go downstairs to get a bowl of ice cream and cherries and then go off to bed....and now im going to have to go down and i will probibally make myself eat a few cherries....gosh, even cherries dont sound good when only a week ago i finished a whole bowl....(like one of those BIG bowls that you drain fruit in) in one sitting.....maybe i can make myself eat two. Well, i just really hope i dont feel like this tomorrow, or anymore for that reason...but especially tomorrow.
Just the thought of food makes me sick now, I just cant handle seeing food, and there is NO REASON for that. Randomly, i just think food is disgusting, and will only make me feel worse than what im feeling now. This whole day I made myself eat a bowl Special K, a tiny kiddie burger from blakes for lunch...and those things are tiny, and some toast at work...and now i feel completely sick like I ate a full course meal with...i duno...a whole pie to finish it off. It's really crazy and it's really scaring me because usually I constantly have an appatite, and even though i sometimes feel self concious of myself and my body, I never thought it would ever effect my daily life, and feelings, and ...eating habits, but if this goes on a few more days it might be as serious as i think it could be. Usually around this time I would go downstairs to get a bowl of ice cream and cherries and then go off to bed....and now im going to have to go down and i will probibally make myself eat a few cherries....gosh, even cherries dont sound good when only a week ago i finished a whole bowl....(like one of those BIG bowls that you drain fruit in) in one sitting.....maybe i can make myself eat two. Well, i just really hope i dont feel like this tomorrow, or anymore for that reason...but especially tomorrow.