The Ripple Effect (part 2)
Reading my last post, I only really elaborated on the initial climb of the ripple and how I feel on the drop. That describes a single hump, but what makes the metaphor more like a ripple? Why would I rebound and go even above the baseline after dropping so low? And why would I continue this cycle of going above and below the baseline until the waters recede back to being flat?
The answer is that once you get over the fact he is gone, you start thinking about all the good things that could have happened. You gain a rise of self-confidence inspired by his simple interest in you. You almost gain a better outlook on love in general.
But once it gets to a certain point, you continue to follow that line of thinking. If I'm feeling this elated now, imagine how it would have been with him. The thoughts eventually come back to what bugged you really from the beginning: Why didn't you do anything more? Why didn't you pursue? What should you have done different? And you are bugged by everything that you -could/should have- done.
It really deduces down to a fight between your logical thinking and your emotions. Our emotions goes against the law of entropy. It wants to go toward a state of stability, instead of a state of chaos. Happiness is chaos. Depression is chaos. Neutrality and apathy are stable. When logic, reality, and circumstances disrupt emotion, it fights back regardless if it is good or bad..
The answer is that once you get over the fact he is gone, you start thinking about all the good things that could have happened. You gain a rise of self-confidence inspired by his simple interest in you. You almost gain a better outlook on love in general.
But once it gets to a certain point, you continue to follow that line of thinking. If I'm feeling this elated now, imagine how it would have been with him. The thoughts eventually come back to what bugged you really from the beginning: Why didn't you do anything more? Why didn't you pursue? What should you have done different? And you are bugged by everything that you -could/should have- done.
It really deduces down to a fight between your logical thinking and your emotions. Our emotions goes against the law of entropy. It wants to go toward a state of stability, instead of a state of chaos. Happiness is chaos. Depression is chaos. Neutrality and apathy are stable. When logic, reality, and circumstances disrupt emotion, it fights back regardless if it is good or bad..