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[imjustso]

I can't find my mailbox key.  I haven't gotten the mail since Tuesday.  I had to stay over at Jane's house so I could drive her to the train Wed morning and I got the mail before I went, dropping the key in my bag with the mail.  Now I can't find it.  It's not in either bag, not in the car, not in my coat, not in the pocket of the pants I was wearing.  I left Jane a vm asking her to check the guest room for it.  I guess I have to go to the PO to get  a new one.  That should be fun.  But my box is not very big and it's got mail from three days in it already.  The mail box key is on a keychain with my spare front door key, so I really hope I didn't drop it outside near my place or someone might go around trying all the doors with it and, when they discover it opens my door, steal all my things, letting my cats out in the process.  Great, now I have to change the lock on my front door.  I don't know how to do that.

Why am I incapable of not losing things? Right, because I'm disorganized.  Why am I incapable of being organized?