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So a lot of plans have changed since graduation.
Fall term I'm going to CCC.. I can't guarantee I'll get to Oregon State in the Winter, but I'm positive i'll get there by next year.
I still don't have a job, so I work for my dad to make money :-)
I seem to have lost a lot of friends, or atleast gotten a lot more distanced from them.. It bugs me but I also know it's due to how much I don't party anymore. I kinda miss it, but its the first time i'm content not doing it since like January!
and I'm dating Kaisa.. Which feels amazing, but I'm still kinda shocked. I just need to never over analyze things. Just sorta let myself be happy and risk whatever I need to. Everything just seriously scares me! and like a month ago I was so against relationships.. I was just waiting for someone to change my mind and thats exactly how it worked out. As much as i'm scared of getting hurt, or damaging our friendship, i'm worried i'll mess up. It's really hard to explain, I just want to be able to give it everything and know that I finally tried with someone. Never realized how tough this stuff is for me! I don't think I can deny that he makes me happy though..
Good thing none of my plans worked out, hopefully my whole life doesn't turn out that way.
Fall term I'm going to CCC.. I can't guarantee I'll get to Oregon State in the Winter, but I'm positive i'll get there by next year.
I still don't have a job, so I work for my dad to make money :-)
I seem to have lost a lot of friends, or atleast gotten a lot more distanced from them.. It bugs me but I also know it's due to how much I don't party anymore. I kinda miss it, but its the first time i'm content not doing it since like January!
and I'm dating Kaisa.. Which feels amazing, but I'm still kinda shocked. I just need to never over analyze things. Just sorta let myself be happy and risk whatever I need to. Everything just seriously scares me! and like a month ago I was so against relationships.. I was just waiting for someone to change my mind and thats exactly how it worked out. As much as i'm scared of getting hurt, or damaging our friendship, i'm worried i'll mess up. It's really hard to explain, I just want to be able to give it everything and know that I finally tried with someone. Never realized how tough this stuff is for me! I don't think I can deny that he makes me happy though..
Good thing none of my plans worked out, hopefully my whole life doesn't turn out that way.