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I'm finding it really hard to let my in-laws know that the reason I just want to be alone for Christmas this year is because I'm sad that tomorrow is 25 years without Dad. They think that I need to be surrounded by family. They're right, I do, but my family are on the other side of the world. As much as I love my in-laws, they can't fill the empty ache I have this time of year. A quarter century of hurt - but the loss is just as raw as it was on Christmas night in 1988. :(