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So heres what i do on a daily basis. Wake up around 530 am to stare at my cell phone for as much as 15 minutes, thinking amanda will call it, fall back asleep and wake up around 830 thinking i missed her call*checks cell phone again*.... No Calls... I then get up for work (if i have it that day) and sell computers to people i sometimes cant even understand when they talk... sometimes they give you an UGH and point to something. I then come home, my mom askes me whats wrong on an almost daily basis, and i tell her nothing because she doesnt need to worry about my problems (i created them so why does sshe need to worry). Now here comes the key part of the day, i usually eat somewhat of a dinner at that point, and sit in my room and talk to people. Ill ask people questions about amanda like there is no tomorrow, and they hate me for it, but i cant help it. I then might go to jays house and sit there and watch a movie, or joes house and just sit there and chill, but not that much anymore. Usually i will sit in my room and wait for her to posibally come online. I will then sit there and hope she emails me, or leaves comments on my MySpace or LJ.

Her month grounding is almost up (on the 26th of this month) so if she wants to, she will be able to talk to me and hang out togeather, however something tells me shes not going to want to do that right away. the GREAT part about all this, is that fact that we remained friends throughout this whole thing. so hopefully she will get back togeather with me, and we can fix everything that i messed up. I still love her and wont get into any other relationship unless its with her.

Ill be waiting for you...
Always