Picture Update...
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Past days have been fine, i'm not liking my body resently.
I hate my hair
I hate how i look
I hate how my clothes fit, (except I do have to say I LOVE that the skinny jeans are back in!!!!! Oh I think i look pretty good in those!)
I think im just going to cut my hair off, I feel like its just pulling me down and I can't stand it.
I got a 60 on my math test...I like wanted to hide in a rock, I felt so confident about it too. And I started to figure things finally, I really got a hold of reality, I really sat down and make plans for the future figure out what I wanna do and where I should go with these paths, and then I get handed a 60 and that puts me right back and I was 'arghh cmon Nicole get your shit toegther this isnt fucking highschool, this is your god damn future'
=\ i studyed for that test too, and this will be my lowest grade! I swear to myself! And it will get dropped! Nothing Lower than 80's from here on out!!!
I'm putting my ass into action!!
I don't think I could handle another rejection from FIT,
Let alone another rejection/disapointment to myself. =(
I look forward to this weekend, Mike says we'll go into the city he need to go to a Museum and look at some old vase, we'll probally go lunch/dinner and call it a day. But that seems like fun and I can't wait!
No classes Monday, phew! Gives me more time to write my essay that I do plan to start tomorrow, isn't due til the following Wednesday plenty of time.
=)