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Mike and I were having the most intresting conversation today about my upbring and how it has affected me. He really couldn't be anymore right...some of the point he brought up were sooo dead on. I just couldnt believe I didn't think\see them. One point that just wont get out of my head is how he compared himself to my father..but with a spin. Mike said that one of the reason I am probally so close (the choice of words he used isn't coming into my mind at the moment) to him is because he is opposite of my father. Example...well for one thing my dad is a crazy partier\ alcoholitic\ women , all of which are not Mike. As I thought about it more, hes right, Michael is acting like the constant love and affection i craved for. I mean don't get me wrong, I love Mike with every ounce of blood in my body and not just because he isn't what my dad is but because of the genuine, amazing, caring, loyal, funny, adorable guy that he is. And I don't wanna sit here and be like ooh my father was horriable was never here for me, never helped me with anything, because my dad is a great man and i look up to him in many ways, just he has these little fallbacks that just make me crazy and wanna like yell at him and be like DUDE YOUR FUCKING 45 GROW UP! =o( Its werid.. There were some other points I just don't feel like getting into them

...i'm sorry i needed to vent.
I Love You Mike<3<3
Thanks for the amazing weekend!!!!!!