Lost sight of my goals
We had sex again.
It was sex.
I didn't really feel anything about it.
I like Eric.
I think today I'm in a dark place. I dunno why all of a sudden.
Eric agrees that I am very straight forward with him. but I am also very complimentary. He listens to what I say. I don't go making critic messages or testing him.
I know that he couldn't handle that. Besides that I have no feelings of wanting to do that.
Sometimes I wonder about Eric.
Eric is great, but I should be more focused on me.
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Steph seems mad at me for some reason. She's being a bitch. She can be a bitch... she's so good at it. I'm just not gonna speak to her. I don't wanna deal with that right now. I have other shit. I'm there for her a lot, but if she's gonna be mad I just don't need to deal with it/ it's not worth it to me. I just... don't care right now. To actually solve it I think I need to care enough to be sincere since I don't I should just leave it alone. If she wants to dwell on whatever it is and not just come address me with it then she can. When he wants to grow up and stop making bitchy comments then she is fully welcome to come talk to me.
Supposed to hang out with Krysta. We'll see if that happens.
Eric and I were supposed to hang out all yesterday. His car broke down do it didn't happen. That's fine/ Shit happens. We won't be seeing each other next week much. We work opposite schedules.
It kinda of annoyed me when Eric said we'd been together 3 and a half weeks. Why say it so precisely when that's inaccurate?
Gonna buy a Nikon d40x.
Might have found a dress for wedding.
It was sex.
I didn't really feel anything about it.
I like Eric.
I think today I'm in a dark place. I dunno why all of a sudden.
Eric agrees that I am very straight forward with him. but I am also very complimentary. He listens to what I say. I don't go making critic messages or testing him.
I know that he couldn't handle that. Besides that I have no feelings of wanting to do that.
Sometimes I wonder about Eric.
Eric is great, but I should be more focused on me.
\
Steph seems mad at me for some reason. She's being a bitch. She can be a bitch... she's so good at it. I'm just not gonna speak to her. I don't wanna deal with that right now. I have other shit. I'm there for her a lot, but if she's gonna be mad I just don't need to deal with it/ it's not worth it to me. I just... don't care right now. To actually solve it I think I need to care enough to be sincere since I don't I should just leave it alone. If she wants to dwell on whatever it is and not just come address me with it then she can. When he wants to grow up and stop making bitchy comments then she is fully welcome to come talk to me.
Supposed to hang out with Krysta. We'll see if that happens.
Eric and I were supposed to hang out all yesterday. His car broke down do it didn't happen. That's fine/ Shit happens. We won't be seeing each other next week much. We work opposite schedules.
It kinda of annoyed me when Eric said we'd been together 3 and a half weeks. Why say it so precisely when that's inaccurate?
Gonna buy a Nikon d40x.
Might have found a dress for wedding.