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so today is christmas. how can i not feel good?
i sat down today by myself and looked at everything around me and realized that i have so much to be grateful for:
i am so thankful to have such a wonderful family that puts up with my shit, and is basically pretty cool and understanding. i have awesome friends that are willing to listen and let me listen, and that balance me out. and even though they sometimes don't understand me, they are there. always. i have a boyfriend that means seriously...the world to me right now. i couldn't have picked someone more perfect for me, and i am feeling so lucky. we are just good together, and we work so well. it just gives me a good feeling to know that i am spending my time with someone who reciprocates the feelings i have. it's just something i can't explain. but it is the best feeling ever.
but i found out recently that kyle is leaving for NC tomorrow. it makes me sad, actually very sad, that he's leaving. but i know we'll still be able to talk. i'm so glad for him, but at the same time i feel like he belongs in oregon, so i just have that option to see him whenever i feel like it. even though neither of us really make that effort... but that's selfish, and i totally understand his want and need to be out there, since i'm experiencing similar feelings. and i get it. life is just crazy sometimes, and i am honestly so amazed and pleased with how things work out.
i don't know. maybe it's just christmas, but i am in this absolute state of euphoria right now. it's been kind of on-going, so i hope it doesn't go away. actually, i don't think it will for a while.
my family is together today and we're watching the traditional "christmas story" on tbs. and i feel like there is nothing i would rather be doing.
i sat down today by myself and looked at everything around me and realized that i have so much to be grateful for:
i am so thankful to have such a wonderful family that puts up with my shit, and is basically pretty cool and understanding. i have awesome friends that are willing to listen and let me listen, and that balance me out. and even though they sometimes don't understand me, they are there. always. i have a boyfriend that means seriously...the world to me right now. i couldn't have picked someone more perfect for me, and i am feeling so lucky. we are just good together, and we work so well. it just gives me a good feeling to know that i am spending my time with someone who reciprocates the feelings i have. it's just something i can't explain. but it is the best feeling ever.
but i found out recently that kyle is leaving for NC tomorrow. it makes me sad, actually very sad, that he's leaving. but i know we'll still be able to talk. i'm so glad for him, but at the same time i feel like he belongs in oregon, so i just have that option to see him whenever i feel like it. even though neither of us really make that effort... but that's selfish, and i totally understand his want and need to be out there, since i'm experiencing similar feelings. and i get it. life is just crazy sometimes, and i am honestly so amazed and pleased with how things work out.
i don't know. maybe it's just christmas, but i am in this absolute state of euphoria right now. it's been kind of on-going, so i hope it doesn't go away. actually, i don't think it will for a while.
my family is together today and we're watching the traditional "christmas story" on tbs. and i feel like there is nothing i would rather be doing.