pull back the bandage, there's no wound.
i don't know.
i just don't know and/or understand anything anymore.
i am so goddamn emo it hurts.
hahahahha. so 'old jessica' like.
so. i went to the mall today & went christmas shopping.
and guess what?
i fucking cannot wait for christmas to be over.
it is so exhausting and stressful and just not any fun whatsoever.
fuck you christmas lovers!!
hahahah yeah.
mhmm. so i am a mess, as usual. and i can't seem to arrive at a decent conclusion. in regards to you know who.
i'm going to do it tomorrow, i think. i can't take it much longer.
i'm driving myself nuts. like, absolutely, unreasonably insane.
and i have come to the conclusion, today, that i would be perfectly happy picking up today, right now, and moving to the city to become a lounge singer in some fancy hotel and earn $60 a gig & be living in a box outside of grand central station. i don't care anymore. i just want my life to start. and if i runaway and start anew, doing something i love, i know my life will just .. take off and i'll have everything i've ever wanted and more.
okay, i'm exaggerating but yeah. you get it.
and i think i have major problems because i can't seem to stop thinking about this one certain person that really isn't supposed to mean anything to me at all.
and guess what?
it's not who you all think.
the end. i have nothing else important to say.
♥
i just don't know and/or understand anything anymore.
i am so goddamn emo it hurts.
hahahahha. so 'old jessica' like.
so. i went to the mall today & went christmas shopping.
and guess what?
i fucking cannot wait for christmas to be over.
it is so exhausting and stressful and just not any fun whatsoever.
fuck you christmas lovers!!
hahahah yeah.
mhmm. so i am a mess, as usual. and i can't seem to arrive at a decent conclusion. in regards to you know who.
i'm going to do it tomorrow, i think. i can't take it much longer.
i'm driving myself nuts. like, absolutely, unreasonably insane.
and i have come to the conclusion, today, that i would be perfectly happy picking up today, right now, and moving to the city to become a lounge singer in some fancy hotel and earn $60 a gig & be living in a box outside of grand central station. i don't care anymore. i just want my life to start. and if i runaway and start anew, doing something i love, i know my life will just .. take off and i'll have everything i've ever wanted and more.
okay, i'm exaggerating but yeah. you get it.
and i think i have major problems because i can't seem to stop thinking about this one certain person that really isn't supposed to mean anything to me at all.
and guess what?
it's not who you all think.
the end. i have nothing else important to say.
♥