I guess since i'm adopted i can be your sister too
weird title huh?
so today i finally get to meet Ana, a little one year old from china. well, her and her sisters stephanie and isabella who are also from china. why? because their mommy is cindy's best friend. and she's moving to Cali. so they're going to stay for a couple of days. i'm pretty excited, isabella (the oldest) called me last night and she said how fun it will be to see me (her "biggest sister") again. and then she said "hey guess what, i'm adopted. does that mean we're really sisters? since we're both? " ahhh the most probing questions come from the most innocent. little kids. how great. recently my whole adoption situation has hmm how shall i say? started to get to me. emotionally. i feel bad because it is so hard to explain and joe being the sweetheart that he is actually tried to understand i love that kid so much he's the best. but yeah i was babysitting this five year old little girl-so cute and so nosy- and she started to ask me about me being adopted. it was fine until she said does that mean your mommy didn't want you? hmm interesting how a little five year old could vocalize your worst fear/ deepest hurt. yup. anyways, enough for right now about that. maybe at another entry i will get into that. but not now. it's too early in the morning.
joe is going to come over and help me with the girls today woo! i think we're going to take them somewhere fun indoors since it doesn't look like the weather will be holding out today. oh well. i saw nicolas last night. it was so cute i turned on the tv to MTV2 and he started dancing. so i wanted to take a video and danny shut off the tv and he stopped. he wouldnt' start untill the music was back on. joe says he's gonna be a gangsta. i said hell no. wow i'm so sorry that this entry is going all over the place, i'm kinda just writing down whatever comes to my head. i think i'll stop. love you all
just call if you wanna chillax.
so today i finally get to meet Ana, a little one year old from china. well, her and her sisters stephanie and isabella who are also from china. why? because their mommy is cindy's best friend. and she's moving to Cali. so they're going to stay for a couple of days. i'm pretty excited, isabella (the oldest) called me last night and she said how fun it will be to see me (her "biggest sister") again. and then she said "hey guess what, i'm adopted. does that mean we're really sisters? since we're both? " ahhh the most probing questions come from the most innocent. little kids. how great. recently my whole adoption situation has hmm how shall i say? started to get to me. emotionally. i feel bad because it is so hard to explain and joe being the sweetheart that he is actually tried to understand i love that kid so much he's the best. but yeah i was babysitting this five year old little girl-so cute and so nosy- and she started to ask me about me being adopted. it was fine until she said does that mean your mommy didn't want you? hmm interesting how a little five year old could vocalize your worst fear/ deepest hurt. yup. anyways, enough for right now about that. maybe at another entry i will get into that. but not now. it's too early in the morning.
joe is going to come over and help me with the girls today woo! i think we're going to take them somewhere fun indoors since it doesn't look like the weather will be holding out today. oh well. i saw nicolas last night. it was so cute i turned on the tv to MTV2 and he started dancing. so i wanted to take a video and danny shut off the tv and he stopped. he wouldnt' start untill the music was back on. joe says he's gonna be a gangsta. i said hell no. wow i'm so sorry that this entry is going all over the place, i'm kinda just writing down whatever comes to my head. i think i'll stop. love you all
just call if you wanna chillax.