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ok, being the lazy person I am, I've dcided to stop doing homework for the night. I decided this 2 hours ago. I am a genius- I come up with the greatest rules, like not doing any homework on Thursday nights. Honestly, I've never done writing homework on a Thursday night for the past 2 years. I was really down yesterday because I just was. I dont know why. I just felt so low. So unappreciated. Come to think of it, I never do anything for people to appreciate, but you know. I was just feeling unwanted. I felt like Deborah was mad at me the whole day. I asked her and she started laughing and she didnt know what I was talking about. I told her that I feel like I did something wrong to her and I feel like she has a negative feeling toward me. To make me feel better, she waved at me today and said hi. It was funny how she did it. The HESSIM CLUB is still on. We dont like hessim but mr. simon seems to really like him because he always brings him up. He even mentioned how hessim has "mad (jumping) skills." Notice the way hessim is spelled. It's not spelled like hessAm. You pronounce it the way it is pronounced: hess-im. I am soccer captain for the Barbies. Thats our team name. I went to the derm yesterday and my mom thinks he's crazy. I'm not taking anything strong to get a bloodtest every month but he gauranteed a 95% improvement in three months. I feel bad for spending all this money and not starting accutane already. I dont like needles anyway. Finals are in 2 weeks and my birthday is in 3. I will be turning 17. I cant believe it. I'm so old. I'll have to start wearing anti-wrinkle cream when I turn 18. I dont want wrinkles. I feel empty. I feel like nothing is bothering me, yet there is so much bothering me.
list of my annoyances:
english vocab. pop quiz tomorrow
my lack of energy
inability to run a nice mile
laziness
finals
my birthday
ivrit test on friday
ivrit class
school, in general
I dont like school. I wish I could take the day off tomorrow. Just sleep in. Not worry about missing anything. I'm just sitting here, staring at my endless amount of split ends. I'm going to gain weight in the next couple of weeks/months. This is not going to be done on purpose. I have enough fat I dont think I can handle a couple of more pounds. I kind of know why I feel empty. Because I dont like anyone so that feeling of liking someone is gone. Now I feel empty without that. I hope this is normal. My mom's car wasnt working properly. Note: Do not buy my mom's car. It's nice to drive and very smooth. I love driving it. It doesnt last long. My mom has this car for a little less than a year and already it has a puncture in the steering fluid pipe thing or something. So the company gave her a chevy cavalier. Yesterday I drove home from school and saw this garbage on the driveway. I told my mom to move this ugly thing and she said its the car they gave her. Really, its embarrassing. I'm not lying. Johnny had to take his car to the shop because that still needs to be fixed so he doesnt have a car. He takes the avalon so I was carless today. My mom picked me up with the rental. A car is NOT a car. I dont know how the time passes so quickly. I just got home- how could it be 9:15 already? This entry has no point. It's just hear because I'm procrastinating. I dont know whats wrong with me. I dont usually procrastinate. I refuse to finish my homework. If it was 6, then I woud do it but now is just too late.
list of my annoyances:
english vocab. pop quiz tomorrow
my lack of energy
inability to run a nice mile
laziness
finals
my birthday
ivrit test on friday
ivrit class
school, in general
I dont like school. I wish I could take the day off tomorrow. Just sleep in. Not worry about missing anything. I'm just sitting here, staring at my endless amount of split ends. I'm going to gain weight in the next couple of weeks/months. This is not going to be done on purpose. I have enough fat I dont think I can handle a couple of more pounds. I kind of know why I feel empty. Because I dont like anyone so that feeling of liking someone is gone. Now I feel empty without that. I hope this is normal. My mom's car wasnt working properly. Note: Do not buy my mom's car. It's nice to drive and very smooth. I love driving it. It doesnt last long. My mom has this car for a little less than a year and already it has a puncture in the steering fluid pipe thing or something. So the company gave her a chevy cavalier. Yesterday I drove home from school and saw this garbage on the driveway. I told my mom to move this ugly thing and she said its the car they gave her. Really, its embarrassing. I'm not lying. Johnny had to take his car to the shop because that still needs to be fixed so he doesnt have a car. He takes the avalon so I was carless today. My mom picked me up with the rental. A car is NOT a car. I dont know how the time passes so quickly. I just got home- how could it be 9:15 already? This entry has no point. It's just hear because I'm procrastinating. I dont know whats wrong with me. I dont usually procrastinate. I refuse to finish my homework. If it was 6, then I woud do it but now is just too late.