Jul 06, 2016 21:17
I am fearful
and frightened
(and) yet somehow delighted
at the prospect of what's to come
Do you see me
or hear me
read a word
that I say
Perpetual motion
My heart like a drum
open your ears
feel the beat and the hum
that's steady, unending
When thinking of you
your presence astounding
I've thought this through
I've looked into your eyes
Seen the sparkle and shine
You either can't see it
or are fearful, and lie
And if such is the case
then I feel you should know
Nothing, but nothing
Will (ever) make me go
You are ever so sweet
that you're rotting my teeth
I love every second
So please do not leave
Please don't run away
Not sure if I could
handle again
a curve ball so good
The hint of a smile
and I'm melting inside
I could not find the words
and now I know why
The flood gates have opened
and it's all pouring out
What can I offer
to ease up your doubt
What can I give you
or show you, or say
So that you can understand
I'm not going away
for I too have been damaged
hurt beyond repair
at least, so I thought
Now (just) look at where
I've gotten to
from whence I have came
I promise my darling
This is no game
I see the spark
you try so hard to hide
in the flash of a smile
The glint in your eyes
I see through the darkness
I see your light
I'm trying to shard
Not to give you a fright
But it's ever the struggle
As I pour out the words
Tripping over my tongue
unsure of my worth
Unsure of my value
As seen through your eyes
Am I a monster?
Or am I a prize?
Am I too clingy?
or just close enough?
Could I be harder?
Or am I too tough?
Can you please help me
Lend me an ear
Answer my questions
Quelling my fears
for I find you intriguing
Amazing and bright
am I miss wrong?
Are you mr. right?
My fears are consuming
My feelings the same
But you light up my life
Where to place the blame...
Do you feel what I feel?
Do you know what I know?
That despite all your trying
Feelings have grown
They have been seeded
Since our first conversation
Awkward and caring
I'm full of sensations
I just want to show you
The world doesn't suck
Put a smile on your face
Am I out of luck?
You say you don't want it
But actions scream louder
Than the words on the paper
And we've talked for hours
I wish I could show you
how you make my day
How you've brightened my life
But what do I say?
I don't want to push you
but what if that's what you need
to see that I'm here
and am not going to flee
I'm so very confused
But I know what I've seen
You can deny
but I know you see me
It's okay to be hurt
I will help with the heals
I DPS
so it's not really my field
but I'll try my best
To offer you care
in all forms that I can
just so you're aware
My patience is trying
I am learning to wait
for I feel you are worth it
I'm giving up haste
for I can't fight the feeling
any more than I have
despite that I'm fearful
yest strangely glad
All I want to give you
is a piece of my heart
which has already happened
without consent on my part
I was doing so well
and then yesterday happened
now I'm afraid
I have been trapped in
A spiral I've known
more times than can count
Please open up
let it all out
I just want your time
and maybe your heart
I'll give mine in return
swear I won't take yours apart
I shall not dissect it
as (has) been done in the past
I've been through it too
do you think it will last?
I am ever so sorry
if I've wasted your time
But I can't help to think
that just maybe I'm right?
for my intuition
as you stated yourself
"You're very intuitive"
So just let it out
I want you and need you
to be in my life
I'm sorry, I'm forward
Our situation is rife
with feelings, emotions
fear & affection
I'm sorry you're hurting
I'll make it better
I'll kiss all the wounds
I'll heal the scars
so they no longer show
and you forget you were marred
It's now almost one
and I must go to sleep
You're first on my mind
and I wish to keep
going this way
slow and sweet as we've been
I only want time
and I'm so very deep in...
for you