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Hey kiddo, long time no type, huh? Well i got my SAT score.. 1100 not too shabby for my first time huh? i couldav done so much better if id brought my graphing calculator.. but no. silly me i forgot it.. but i need to get 1240 i think to get into william and mary. but after sat prep im sure ill get it. Ugh the agony of high school. im soo bothered by all going around me. im completely sure that im failing biology. and its all my fault. i havent read anything from the book this entire year. its just so damn heavy that i cant carry it around with me all day. and i cant go to my locker after school cuz my carpool will leave me if im not there ;like 2 seconds after the bell rings. i dont feel like walking home again either. stop comlainig you wmip. sheesh. im kinda glad that we lost our football game. dont get me wrong though.. go khs yea football. but i knew it was going to happen soon. i mean come on, its phoebus. but im just all out of pep. for some reason i just dont care anymore. ever notice just the way things work and everything seem sso clear and you have figured everything out? them BAM something totally just out of the blue comes up and smacks you i that face? its so hard for me to make decisions. whats that word.. oh i cant even think of it.. its like im still not even sure what kind of person i want to be.. kind of person. how degrading. what am i talking about. i heard someone say once "If you have to make a decision, and you dont choose, you've still made a decision" although im sure it sounded mush more profetic then. is that even a word? but i still dont know what i want.. or what i want to be. everyone else has there whole lives planned out. and i dont like anything that ived tried so far. i dont want to be a teacher or a doctor. i think i need to start trying more things. theres a reseolution, but its not like ive ever kept one of those. hmm why am i getting so thoughtful tonight. maybe it just been bottled up for a while.
but well no names of course because the last i want to do is start talking ya know? but it just seems that people im really close to, im not really that close to them. just now im really getting to know them and im finding out things that are just totally different from what i thought. its like everything that used to be so important and right.. isnt anymore. im not trying to bring anyone down.. im probably the most at fault here. i find that every flaw i find in people, i have found first in myself. does that make sense? and i definitle have a lot to work on then. i thin kim just really tired. its sleepy sleepy time now! peaces
but well no names of course because the last i want to do is start talking ya know? but it just seems that people im really close to, im not really that close to them. just now im really getting to know them and im finding out things that are just totally different from what i thought. its like everything that used to be so important and right.. isnt anymore. im not trying to bring anyone down.. im probably the most at fault here. i find that every flaw i find in people, i have found first in myself. does that make sense? and i definitle have a lot to work on then. i thin kim just really tired. its sleepy sleepy time now! peaces