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It's not been the best week. but I'm somehow still determined.
Determined to find a job that is satisfying and rewarding and challenging but not too challenging.
Determined to have a dog that does not get me kicked out of my rental because of his separation anxiety (which causes him a great deal of pain).
Determined not to fuck up every relationship with every person I know because I think I'm unworthy or too crazy or bottled up.
But these all take work. work to find a job and keep it. work to train Larry and mean it. work to reach out and be honest and true.
...and i'm so lazy...
please let 2014 be different.
let me find the will and do it.
let me find strength in me.
please.
i want it to be a good year.
i actually really do.
Determined to find a job that is satisfying and rewarding and challenging but not too challenging.
Determined to have a dog that does not get me kicked out of my rental because of his separation anxiety (which causes him a great deal of pain).
Determined not to fuck up every relationship with every person I know because I think I'm unworthy or too crazy or bottled up.
But these all take work. work to find a job and keep it. work to train Larry and mean it. work to reach out and be honest and true.
...and i'm so lazy...
please let 2014 be different.
let me find the will and do it.
let me find strength in me.
please.
i want it to be a good year.
i actually really do.