I'm screwed
I have never been one for making decisions, and yet the biggest one of my life lies just ahead. I have already neglected my opportunity to study in a post secondary institution. However, my heart said not leave. Some people had frowned upon me, but I mean, I do have common sense and reason, but emotion is always part of my decisions. How can I make this choice anyways. I have never planned my life more than a week in advance, with a few exceptions for fun weekends. I am now suppose to choose a field of study for four years, and in turn, my life. Despite what they say, it is hard to make a decision from the vague Ideas you get from course descriptions. I took this year to actually figure out my life, and to also keep someone in it. But I mean, if I were to really take this year to figure things out, I would have to lock myself away in a house in the woods with a virtual reality kit to actually "think". The whole idea of making money has always discouraged me. Some people make huge sacrifices for the sake of more income. I only know one thing for sure right now, and it is the truth. No matter what happens to me, or what I choose to do, I wish to do it with her. If I won to nobel prize it wouldn't be worth a dime to me if I could not share it with anyone. Something my history teacher said to my class struck me. "In the middle ages no one mattered unless you were rich, and now its come to the point where 'its all for one, and screw everyone else'". it wasn't exactly like that, but you know what it means. It just seems strange to me that throughout thousands of years we have never been able to really figure out what is really important. We go from one extreme to another. I suppose that is our free will at work. I have strayed like crazy, i am going to stop now. This might have been a little too much for a second entry.