Hey wheres the kid with the chemicals?
so I really should be sleeping right now. I still kind of have mono. But the sore throat and tiredness are going away. We put manson to sleep yesterday:(. I dug the hole thursday. I was really sad. I still am sad. I still look for him. I walked down stairs a little while ago to get something to eat I looked for him to make sure I didnt step on him while I walked into the kitchen. Also if I am eating something, like bread. I will eat like half of a piece of bread and give the rest to him. I did that today. My dad was sobbing. I wwished I could have stayed in the room with him when they gave him the shot. I doubt I could have handled it though. The vet wouldnt take any money because we took such good care of him. In other news I suck. We had a show last night at the lake it was okay. Nothin Yet is awful. I wish I knew how horrible they were in advance so I could have told them. Oh how Geneva loves shitty metal. Oh look Sufjan Stevens is on MTV. I heard it first already. Fags. I'm going to Florida Tuesday. Its my cousin Lindas 30th birthday. I'll get to see JP too. I've been really sad lately. Really mopey and I don't know why. I need companionship. Or a lover i don't have to love. I went to a stag party tonight. I had the most delicious steak. I tore down a stoop today. I'd rather tear a stoop down instead of talking to a priest. My dad got sort of drunk at the stag party. I was playing pool with my cousin and my dad called me a paraplegic(sp). I am very awkward. I play pool right handed. Tonight was a complete failure of going out and getting hammered. I put a black and mild out in the palm of my hand. Damn you Justin for telling me about that. Do you like to hurt? I do I do Then hurt me....