"am i more than u bargained for..."
so today i woke up, went running, took craig to go pick up his truck from joe's, came home and took a nap, watched a very interesting oprah, then went with mom to get dinner. exciting day i know! anywho...my mom and i don't talk about serious matters much, but today i asked her about the fight she had with my grandma the other day and why she got so upset. we talked about how my grandmother can be a very controlling individual and cuts you down with her words. i have never really seen my g-ma in that light, but i do now. i see the way she makes my mom feel and how my mom deals with it. my mom never really stood up to her when she was growing up and this time, during their last arguement, she did. she told me she felt bad about it. but all my mom was trying to do is help her out with some medical stuff when my g-ma didn't know what to do and my g-ma got pissed at her thinking that she was just trying to be disrespectful when all my mom was doing was trying to help. it's kinda sad to think that my g-ma is a contolling woman, but i know that i wouldn't let her do that to me, so i don't think my mom should put up with it. i don't care if she IS my grandmother. how she abuses my mom with her words and makes her feel guilty for something my mom isn't even doing is just wrong.
well needless to say it was quite the convo. and i'm glad mom and i get to talk like we do. i learn a lot about her through the talks we have. it's really nice sometimes to see my mom as a human being instead of just my mom.
so i have to say that i am more in love than ever with my blake!! he has been so much for me this time we have spent as a couple. i just want to say that i LOVE him and pray that it is God's will for him to remain in my life as my love for a long time to come!!! LOVE YOU BABY!!!
gotta go...america's next top model is on!!!