Much Happiness :)
My birthday was indeed quite wonderful. :) Lovely time with church family in the morning, and an all-around enjoyable, peaceful day. And I now have some lovely new reading material - including a copy of The Thief with a little extra section that the library version didn't have. And the most perfect, tiny MP3 player! (Which my sweet, tech-savvy little brother got completely set up for me, with all of my music on it, as well as giving me a run-down of how everything works.) And the Iron Man DVD. Yes, I am turning into far more of a superhero fan than I'd ever expected. Sometimes, my levels of geekiness surprise even me. *g* And Neffie made me an awesome cake - a brownie/chocolate cake thing, with a chocolate cheesecake layer on top, and a chocolate glaze on top of that. She knows me well. :D
My family is so wonderful. *hugs them all*
And in a typical quite random change of subject...
Also... the other night I had a thought for a fanfic. NCIS, actually, and at first it was really more of a vague "wow, wouldn't it be cool if something like this had actually been written by someone?" kind of thing, which I didn't expect to go any further. An AU which, with the right handling, could actually be turned into something that almost conforms to (and explains parts of) canon. A sort of unexpected-behind-the-scenes-canon-suddenly-comes-to-the-forefront, one might say. It's the sort of thing that could be one mid-length story, yes, but would be more likely to morph into a ginormous novel-length thing, or a whole series.
The thing is... I think I've almost talked myself into writing it. Or co-authoring it with Nef, rather. But I can't. This is a really, really, really bad thing. Seriously. Can't do it. Just - just it's complicated, and the sheer number of possibilities, and the potential logic holes that would need to be filled, and the world building required - even thinking about it's enough to give me a headache. It's the sort of story I could spend years on, at the slooow rate I write, and still not feel comfortable I'd developed it to a point that did the idea justice, and wasn't just silly. Because really, it is the sort of story that could be really cool, but if it was rushed or not done well, it would just be a lame, biased fangirly-type... thing.
And this is fanfic. I can not afford to put that kind of time into it. And I am not the sort of writer who can just come up with these ideas, and then just... write them down. I'm slow. And I don't have the stamina. Seriously, when I try to write long stories, I always wind up getting tired toward the end, and just desperately needing to be done, and rushing things, and leaving out ideas I have or not doing justice to the best parts, because I have to finish this thing all ready. (Which might be partly blamed upon an addiction to feedback - feel too responsible to post a WIP anywhere, at the slow rate I go, and yet working that long without sharing it and getting opinions, with the vague, lurking feeling that it's really not very good anyway, or I'm going to have missed some glaring plot hole... :P)
So, obviously, I can't do this. And I won't. But... I kind of want to. No, I really don't want to, actually. I just want it to have been written by someone. It'd be kind of cool if that someone were me... but I really don't want it to be. But... maybe if I could think of a way to break it down into short, stand-alone stories, so I didn't get worn out - except that obviously wouldn't work. So yeah. No.
Wow, schizophrenic much? Honestly, the idea's not even all that cool or exciting. I just keep having these... thoughts pop up in my head, and with Nef currently writing so many various AU stories of her own, I don't have anyone I can just foist them off on and wash my hands of the matter. Augh. Have to stop thinking about this.
No. No, no, no. Uh-uh. No.
*kicks idea* Go. Away.
Ahem. Okay, I'm good now.
My family is so wonderful. *hugs them all*
And in a typical quite random change of subject...
Also... the other night I had a thought for a fanfic. NCIS, actually, and at first it was really more of a vague "wow, wouldn't it be cool if something like this had actually been written by someone?" kind of thing, which I didn't expect to go any further. An AU which, with the right handling, could actually be turned into something that almost conforms to (and explains parts of) canon. A sort of unexpected-behind-the-scenes-canon-suddenly-comes-to-the-forefront, one might say. It's the sort of thing that could be one mid-length story, yes, but would be more likely to morph into a ginormous novel-length thing, or a whole series.
The thing is... I think I've almost talked myself into writing it. Or co-authoring it with Nef, rather. But I can't. This is a really, really, really bad thing. Seriously. Can't do it. Just - just it's complicated, and the sheer number of possibilities, and the potential logic holes that would need to be filled, and the world building required - even thinking about it's enough to give me a headache. It's the sort of story I could spend years on, at the slooow rate I write, and still not feel comfortable I'd developed it to a point that did the idea justice, and wasn't just silly. Because really, it is the sort of story that could be really cool, but if it was rushed or not done well, it would just be a lame, biased fangirly-type... thing.
And this is fanfic. I can not afford to put that kind of time into it. And I am not the sort of writer who can just come up with these ideas, and then just... write them down. I'm slow. And I don't have the stamina. Seriously, when I try to write long stories, I always wind up getting tired toward the end, and just desperately needing to be done, and rushing things, and leaving out ideas I have or not doing justice to the best parts, because I have to finish this thing all ready. (Which might be partly blamed upon an addiction to feedback - feel too responsible to post a WIP anywhere, at the slow rate I go, and yet working that long without sharing it and getting opinions, with the vague, lurking feeling that it's really not very good anyway, or I'm going to have missed some glaring plot hole... :P)
So, obviously, I can't do this. And I won't. But... I kind of want to. No, I really don't want to, actually. I just want it to have been written by someone. It'd be kind of cool if that someone were me... but I really don't want it to be. But... maybe if I could think of a way to break it down into short, stand-alone stories, so I didn't get worn out - except that obviously wouldn't work. So yeah. No.
Wow, schizophrenic much? Honestly, the idea's not even all that cool or exciting. I just keep having these... thoughts pop up in my head, and with Nef currently writing so many various AU stories of her own, I don't have anyone I can just foist them off on and wash my hands of the matter. Augh. Have to stop thinking about this.
No. No, no, no. Uh-uh. No.
*kicks idea* Go. Away.
Ahem. Okay, I'm good now.