hold your breath and count to ten, fall apart and start again
Josh came over again today.
Of corse.
It's summer!
He slept a lot. He got up at 6 am.
I stayed up till 1 am, and got up at 8.
I let him sleep though.
My mommy made soup.
I made waffles.
And then I stole Josh's Placebo cd! woot!
They're interesting.
Very ineteresting.
I'm debating with myself weather or not I should sleep on the trampoline.
It's such a beautiful night out.
It'd be so much better if Joshua could stay the night with me though.
There's....just...certain small dilemma's in our way though.
I remember...when a year ago, I was afraid to go to school, because I didn't want to have to look at the love of my life.
Because he hated me.
It was so sudden. I didn't even know what hit me.
I didn't know what hit him.
He would treat me like the "cool kids" treat the litte nerd girl in movies.
Well, not necesarily.
He wouldn't even acknowedge my existance.
But his friends would glare at me. With the utmost hate.
I didn't even know them.
But it was like I didn't even know him.
And that was the worst part of it all.
It's like when the silent treatment from your parents is worse than being yelled at.
But look where we are now!
It's so wonderful.
I never even dreamed it would happen.
Well maybe I did.
But then I just cried myself unconcious.
I want you all to be at our wedding.
In.....as many more unbearble years that I have to wait.
Oh and I want a Love Sac as a wedding gift from someone.
You know like the Love Sacs at the big mall in Phoenix?
I want the biggest size.
Pink and fuzzy, please.
I still can't belive how wonderful things are.
I love Josh so much.
I wish I could spend every waking moment with him...and more.
JOSHua I LOVE YOU!
Of corse.
It's summer!
He slept a lot. He got up at 6 am.
I stayed up till 1 am, and got up at 8.
I let him sleep though.
My mommy made soup.
I made waffles.
And then I stole Josh's Placebo cd! woot!
They're interesting.
Very ineteresting.
I'm debating with myself weather or not I should sleep on the trampoline.
It's such a beautiful night out.
It'd be so much better if Joshua could stay the night with me though.
There's....just...certain small dilemma's in our way though.
I remember...when a year ago, I was afraid to go to school, because I didn't want to have to look at the love of my life.
Because he hated me.
It was so sudden. I didn't even know what hit me.
I didn't know what hit him.
He would treat me like the "cool kids" treat the litte nerd girl in movies.
Well, not necesarily.
He wouldn't even acknowedge my existance.
But his friends would glare at me. With the utmost hate.
I didn't even know them.
But it was like I didn't even know him.
And that was the worst part of it all.
It's like when the silent treatment from your parents is worse than being yelled at.
But look where we are now!
It's so wonderful.
I never even dreamed it would happen.
Well maybe I did.
But then I just cried myself unconcious.
I want you all to be at our wedding.
In.....as many more unbearble years that I have to wait.
Oh and I want a Love Sac as a wedding gift from someone.
You know like the Love Sacs at the big mall in Phoenix?
I want the biggest size.
Pink and fuzzy, please.
I still can't belive how wonderful things are.
I love Josh so much.
I wish I could spend every waking moment with him...and more.
JOSHua I LOVE YOU!