its the same old song
i dunno if im happy with how today went.
First, i couldnt wake up.
Then when I was so ready and pumped up to go to school, i felt so sick i couldnt even walk across the street.
I went home, against my will.
I'm upset because it's been so long since I've seen Saudia, and Jose, and Sam, and Melanie, and Tim and all my pals. I've missed so much school! I feel like I'm letting my friends down, almost, because I'm never there.
It was a bad way to start my day.
Josh wanted to come and see me, because he always does, of corse. I love him so much!
He came over and went swimming, but for some reason he just seemed really distant. It wasn't as fun, or romantic as usual. It's not like I think he doesn't love me, or anything, it's just...maybe we're seeing too much of each other? Maybe he needs a brake, but he's afraid to say so.
Well not like that's a problem. I guess my dad is mad at me or somthing, and so my mom said I probably won't be seeing josh for a couple of days anyways.
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I can't wait until school is over. I'm becoming so anxious. I'm going to miss all my friends. I need to make sure to get phone numbers and screen names before the year is over... But I'm tired of working. I'm tired of thinking. It's been a long year.
I can't wait to have 3 months to myself. I have so many plans, to just engulf myself in self pleasure. I want to get buff. I want to learn how to RUN again. heh. I want to learn to play Santaria, and sing it perfect at the same time.
I want to not be TIRED anymore. I want to wake up early, and not have any worries. That's what school does to me. Is that what responsibility is? Worries? That's what it seems like.
It's been a long year.
First, i couldnt wake up.
Then when I was so ready and pumped up to go to school, i felt so sick i couldnt even walk across the street.
I went home, against my will.
I'm upset because it's been so long since I've seen Saudia, and Jose, and Sam, and Melanie, and Tim and all my pals. I've missed so much school! I feel like I'm letting my friends down, almost, because I'm never there.
It was a bad way to start my day.
Josh wanted to come and see me, because he always does, of corse. I love him so much!
He came over and went swimming, but for some reason he just seemed really distant. It wasn't as fun, or romantic as usual. It's not like I think he doesn't love me, or anything, it's just...maybe we're seeing too much of each other? Maybe he needs a brake, but he's afraid to say so.
Well not like that's a problem. I guess my dad is mad at me or somthing, and so my mom said I probably won't be seeing josh for a couple of days anyways.
~~~
I can't wait until school is over. I'm becoming so anxious. I'm going to miss all my friends. I need to make sure to get phone numbers and screen names before the year is over... But I'm tired of working. I'm tired of thinking. It's been a long year.
I can't wait to have 3 months to myself. I have so many plans, to just engulf myself in self pleasure. I want to get buff. I want to learn how to RUN again. heh. I want to learn to play Santaria, and sing it perfect at the same time.
I want to not be TIRED anymore. I want to wake up early, and not have any worries. That's what school does to me. Is that what responsibility is? Worries? That's what it seems like.
It's been a long year.