Yay for Snowdays!!
I just went on the GV website to check my school email and the happiest pink box told me that school tomorrow is canceled, which means that I can putz around blogging instead of doing homework. YAY! I haven't blogged in such a long time. Well, I briefly bragged that Nick was coming to town and that I lost 5 pounds (up to six now) but those didn't really count. :)
Lately I've been in this off-and-on foul mood and I don't really know why. But last weekend Nick came and that helped a lot. We had so much fun. I love him so much. It's almost strange how I loved him for so long without ever really knowing what that meant. Since we've been together my definition of the word 'love' has deepened so much. I mean, he's the only person I could ever really imagine myself being with and yet I never really really knew what that meant until we got together. I seriously look at him and all of a sudden it will hit me: this is it. This is the meaning of life. What they say about just knowing when it's right is true. I have never and will never feel the same about another human being. It's weird. He's like air. Light. Scent and sustenance. Every emotion and every sense just hits me all at once and all I can do is smile at him.
Being away from him is so hard. In the beginning it was worse because I was dealing with growing up and moving away from my little sister and parents and dog and bedroom with the blue curtains. When I added my Nick who finally got a clue to the mix it was like death. Now I'm older and I can stand to be away from my Mommy and my puppy and I finally took the Dawson's Creek poster down in my bedroom at home. But I'm still away from my Nick who finally got a clue. So I should be elated about graduating so I can be with him. And I am. Elated isn't a strong enough word. But now I'm just worried about that big scary world out there. Sooo... I guess that's why I've been in such a bad mood. I's gots the crazies. 'Nuff said. So anyways, I'm sorry if I've said or done anything kind of iffy the past few weeks. I'll shake out of it. :)
Lately I've been in this off-and-on foul mood and I don't really know why. But last weekend Nick came and that helped a lot. We had so much fun. I love him so much. It's almost strange how I loved him for so long without ever really knowing what that meant. Since we've been together my definition of the word 'love' has deepened so much. I mean, he's the only person I could ever really imagine myself being with and yet I never really really knew what that meant until we got together. I seriously look at him and all of a sudden it will hit me: this is it. This is the meaning of life. What they say about just knowing when it's right is true. I have never and will never feel the same about another human being. It's weird. He's like air. Light. Scent and sustenance. Every emotion and every sense just hits me all at once and all I can do is smile at him.
Being away from him is so hard. In the beginning it was worse because I was dealing with growing up and moving away from my little sister and parents and dog and bedroom with the blue curtains. When I added my Nick who finally got a clue to the mix it was like death. Now I'm older and I can stand to be away from my Mommy and my puppy and I finally took the Dawson's Creek poster down in my bedroom at home. But I'm still away from my Nick who finally got a clue. So I should be elated about graduating so I can be with him. And I am. Elated isn't a strong enough word. But now I'm just worried about that big scary world out there. Sooo... I guess that's why I've been in such a bad mood. I's gots the crazies. 'Nuff said. So anyways, I'm sorry if I've said or done anything kind of iffy the past few weeks. I'll shake out of it. :)