Vent

[imatiger_rawrr]

Why the fuck does everything feel like it sits on my shoulders? Why do i have to be the one that feels bad about everything? Why must you yell, why must you put me off, why must i sit and wait, why must i feel like shit. Cuz we all do. Its everyone- Everything. In motion- dragging out to the bottom of this well that im desperatly trying to climb. I recently found out i was adopted. Whoopdidamndoodoo. do i feel bad, no, am i hurt, why? i dont fuckin know. Now all my mum wants to do is Talk and talk and talk. and it cuts into what i want to do which is talk and talk and talk to Mandee.... Fucking lifes complicated... I think mandee's ok then the next minuet she is like, not ok.. and i feel like ive done something wrong.. If i have please let me know so i can fix it. All i want to do is make her happy, with whatever and everything. I get personal satisfaction seeing a smile on her face. But thats me. I think im gettin sick. NOthing i eat is seeming to stick in me. i eat and eat and eat and its gone in 10 mins.. going to doctors soon.argh to make it better fuckin work is pissin me off. You need to pull your fair share of the load Jay... FUCK YOU GUYS I DO THE DAMN FUCKIN THING OK

ARGHHHHHHHh the only thing keeping me sane right now is my gf

I love you