really just fuck everything
well today was pretty ridiculously disappointing, and of course it was intended to be really good but you know thats just how shit works for me. i skipped to go meet someone who ended up sick (with no way to contact me because I had his # but he didnt have mine) and I was supposed to meet someone else this morning which also didnt happen, I still haven't talked to my dad since our little encounter on Sunday and I don't plan to for a few more days unless it is to yell at him for being the douchebag that he has been lately. i now can only miss one more school day for the rest of the year... what a waste. and what makes it all worse is that i pretty much asked for everything i got today. skipping was a pretty stupid idea in the first place because now i only have 1 day left, and when i was at the prudential this morning i stole 3 books from barnes & noble. so rightfully i shouldnt even be bitching because i deserved it. but that still doesnt make it suck any less.
FUCK!
its not even that serious but the shit with my dad going on inside my head is probably more serious than i am allowing it to be. being blown off (even if it wasnt on purpose and thats really the wrong term, there's nothing else i can call it) TWICE in one day is pretty annoying but its nothing to freak out too much over, not by itself anyway. but theres just too much going on, i'm too tired to take it all in and not get upset. so now i'm upset. obviously.
FUCK!
its not even that serious but the shit with my dad going on inside my head is probably more serious than i am allowing it to be. being blown off (even if it wasnt on purpose and thats really the wrong term, there's nothing else i can call it) TWICE in one day is pretty annoying but its nothing to freak out too much over, not by itself anyway. but theres just too much going on, i'm too tired to take it all in and not get upset. so now i'm upset. obviously.