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I went to tucson with caroline and zak and i broke up. i was really sad becuase of what had happened and i started talking to this guy and we ended having sex. 4 times. and ashley told zak and i wish i could have been the one to tell him. i mean it would have been better if it came from me. but yeah so caroline got mad at me long story short i ended up at ashleys. and i didnt really talk to zak that much. he was kinda acting weird and so ashley was liekw ell from all the shit he has told me you should be mad at him and i said i know. and i delted my inbox and it said i had zero messages. and i got really upset because i had saved this message from zak and i thought it was gone. it just sucked becuase i felt like i lost him and i wuldnt remember him and i started crying. but then i looked at it again and it was still there. and now were talking again. and im happy and i dont want to mess this up. and i dont know what i want right now like i want to be with him again but im scared that things will end up bad again.