>>>every sunset that we'll miss, i'll wrap them all up in a kiss<<<
>>>"lonely, im so lonely.....i have nobody to call my own"<<<
>>>lol of course i have someone, derek, but sad to say that half of my heart is back on the boat for more than a couple, more than a few, but maybe a smidge less than alot of days......i left the pier an hour ago and im already sad without him, i have listened to the song that he proclaimed was his song to me about 50 times, it just sits on repeat.....does this make me sad that i miss my husband so much? everytime he leaves a little piece of my heart breaks....its not his fault, its no ones fault, this is HIS job and i married him knowing what it would lead to. im very very proud of him, he is doing good in his shop, in security, in our life, everything. i would never have imagined that i would feel "complete" by age 20.......but its a great feeling....lol even though we have hit our fair share of "speed bumps" on the way.....but what does not kill you only makes you stronger...<<<
>>>ahhhhhhh, so going to the doctor is sooooo much fun! **gags** and i have to go by myself on the 15th, fun fun.....i hate doctors, usually derek goes with me.....well i dont think that i hate the doctors, the whole hospital scene isnt for me, lol.....i think that after they took my apendix, im a little nervous as to what they might take next! lol a little humor never hurts.....well they figured out why i was having headaches.....i was taking excedrine for so long (a little over a year, like everyday) that my body didnt want to function without it, and let me tell you, a splitting headache is the last thing you want to have everyday! so i stopped taking excedrine, i drink tea or take a little nap when i get a headache. much better! well i switched to "ultra lights", not that that makes my smoking any better than before! but it gets me one step closer! derek and i dont want to smoke around our children, or smoke period......not a good example, plus i dont want to die at like 40 and not see my grandchildren.....<<<
>>> well andre` is almost 7! my other little brother Ryan turned 4, lol too cute! dereks little brother also turned 4.......god they are getting so big! oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE! lol ivonne and i threw a "Happy Birthday, Welcome Home and a Happy Halloween" Party all in one day! we decorated a cake for mike (spiderman of course!) we baked Holloween cookies, made hamburgers and the whole nine yards, well maybe 7 yards, im sure that there were a few things we left out! But it was fun.......i got sucker'd into seeing the new movie "Doom" with derek and chris, i wanted to see the corpse bride.....lol derek vowed to get me the corpse bride when it comes out on dvd and the nightmare before christmas on dvd (i have the vhs, lol i have a shit ton of vhs.....)....so im happy about that! did i mention that i miss derek<3? lol.......ahhh<<<
>>>well hopefully i will have my cellphone in 2-3 business days.....i had to wait for derek to actually bring his POA home....he had it on the boat....and since he is the main one on the account, i needed it to get a new phone.....mine is already paid for, i just need to pay for his to get here....in due time, i have some time to do it, but i am going to do it on the 1st, that way i dont have to worry about it and he will have his new phone when he gets back! well i have laundry to do and a house to re-clean, thanks a bunch guys! lol, oh wait im susie homemaker now, i live for cleaning, lol....i have been domesticated..........J/K.....
lenee
>>>lol of course i have someone, derek, but sad to say that half of my heart is back on the boat for more than a couple, more than a few, but maybe a smidge less than alot of days......i left the pier an hour ago and im already sad without him, i have listened to the song that he proclaimed was his song to me about 50 times, it just sits on repeat.....does this make me sad that i miss my husband so much? everytime he leaves a little piece of my heart breaks....its not his fault, its no ones fault, this is HIS job and i married him knowing what it would lead to. im very very proud of him, he is doing good in his shop, in security, in our life, everything. i would never have imagined that i would feel "complete" by age 20.......but its a great feeling....lol even though we have hit our fair share of "speed bumps" on the way.....but what does not kill you only makes you stronger...<<<
>>>ahhhhhhh, so going to the doctor is sooooo much fun! **gags** and i have to go by myself on the 15th, fun fun.....i hate doctors, usually derek goes with me.....well i dont think that i hate the doctors, the whole hospital scene isnt for me, lol.....i think that after they took my apendix, im a little nervous as to what they might take next! lol a little humor never hurts.....well they figured out why i was having headaches.....i was taking excedrine for so long (a little over a year, like everyday) that my body didnt want to function without it, and let me tell you, a splitting headache is the last thing you want to have everyday! so i stopped taking excedrine, i drink tea or take a little nap when i get a headache. much better! well i switched to "ultra lights", not that that makes my smoking any better than before! but it gets me one step closer! derek and i dont want to smoke around our children, or smoke period......not a good example, plus i dont want to die at like 40 and not see my grandchildren.....<<<
>>> well andre` is almost 7! my other little brother Ryan turned 4, lol too cute! dereks little brother also turned 4.......god they are getting so big! oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE! lol ivonne and i threw a "Happy Birthday, Welcome Home and a Happy Halloween" Party all in one day! we decorated a cake for mike (spiderman of course!) we baked Holloween cookies, made hamburgers and the whole nine yards, well maybe 7 yards, im sure that there were a few things we left out! But it was fun.......i got sucker'd into seeing the new movie "Doom" with derek and chris, i wanted to see the corpse bride.....lol derek vowed to get me the corpse bride when it comes out on dvd and the nightmare before christmas on dvd (i have the vhs, lol i have a shit ton of vhs.....)....so im happy about that! did i mention that i miss derek<3? lol.......ahhh<<<
>>>well hopefully i will have my cellphone in 2-3 business days.....i had to wait for derek to actually bring his POA home....he had it on the boat....and since he is the main one on the account, i needed it to get a new phone.....mine is already paid for, i just need to pay for his to get here....in due time, i have some time to do it, but i am going to do it on the 1st, that way i dont have to worry about it and he will have his new phone when he gets back! well i have laundry to do and a house to re-clean, thanks a bunch guys! lol, oh wait im susie homemaker now, i live for cleaning, lol....i have been domesticated..........J/K.....
lenee